My Life as Me

take care of my girlfriend!!!!!

2010-04-18T15:00:00.003+08:00

what what what???? no no no i dont have a girlfriend ahahahahah
this is my currently favourite song..its from my currently favourite korean boy group...the melody is great ...the lyrics are great too....the boys looks great too...i'm soooo happy when they decided to do a mv for this.....i love it....

this is my present for all of you..sorry for not writing for one hundred million years ahahaha...i can see spider webs already...right...enjoy\~~~~

english translation
Today my friend asked me if he could date you
Since I had broken up with you, he said he'd cherish you in my place

"THAT THAT THAT THAT THAT'S OKAY
GET GET GET GET AWAY
It's okay, it's not like we have anything to do with each other anymore
Stop saying sorry, my heart doesn't hurt
Please be a good boyfriend to her in place of me"

I can't get myself to say that I still can't sleep at night because of her
With a forced smile I encouraged him and sent him away OH GIRL

Oh can't you see? I'm still lovin' you
My heart still can't seem to let you go

Say no! no! no! no! no! Say no! no! no! no! no!
Tell him no, tell him your heart is still waiting for me SAY NO!

"She can't drink a lot and she doesn't like smoke
She hates being alone so always be with her"

Always celebrate her birthday and anniversaries"
I don't know why I'm telling him this

I know I'm going to turn around and regret this but I still acted cool
I know I'm going to be upset behind my friend's back and beg him not to

Oh can't you see? I'm still lovin' you
My heart still can't seem to let you go

Say no! no! no! no! no! Say no! no! no! no! no!
Tell him no, tell him your heart is still waiting for me SAY NO!

(Say) no no no (Say) you can't
(Say) you will wait for me
(Say) no no no (Say) you can't
(Say) you will wait for me

I can't get myself to say that I still can't sleep at night because of her
With a forced smile I encouraged him and sent him away OH GIRL

Oh can't you see? I'm still lovin' you
My heart still can't seem to let you go

Say no! no! no! no! no! Say no! no! no! no! no!
Tell him no, tell him your heart is still waiting for me SAY NO!

credits: Desrae @ soompi

i wnat to be a warrior not a worrier

2009-08-22T01:23:00.002+08:00

annyeong~~~~

i think i need a major make over on how my brain functions nowadays or lately...i've been worrying about something or someone too much...i've been worrying about EVERYTHING too much and its slowly eating who i real am away....in normal world people would call me paranoid but i cant help it..i cant help but worry about things..maybe thats my biggest weakness....

Sometimes i worry about how i might hurt someone's feeling but in the end i found out that they're completely fime, sometimes i worry about things which i myself are not sure whether its going to end bad or good...sometimes i worry about things which are completely unrelated to me and sometimes in just worry about anything which comes to mind.....

its amazing how these things can really exhaust someone's mind...sometimes it makes me stress out but i know its not anyone's fault...sometimes i talk to myself that nothing is going terrible but i cant help it...

hmmm.....whatever hahaha.....

its been a while i know....i just got back my mood to blog...its not pretty hectic this semester...somehow i'm pretty geared up to face this semester and i'm really fired up to take my courses and my sense of competitiveness is over the roof top and i dont even know why...hahaha basic biological instinct!!!!

i dont know why but my animal and plant phylo course went rather well this semester..i was enjoying every lecture and understanding everything...i dont know why but i think i can handle this better than the first time...maybe this is what people called the 'hikmah' of the past..i dont know what hikmah means in english so ...i'm sorry ahahaha....

feels a bit better after writting this...

i will try my best to change my bad habits...

i will try to be a warrior...

Holiday Vs supplement

2009-06-07T18:17:00.002+08:00

annyeong~~~~~

its been a while....i'm having my holidays right now..didnt have any mood to blog lately but i have come today with a reason..i have come with a lot of problems in my mind..... one of them...i'm having yet another supplement exam...its biometry...no suprise in that....i'm glad i got supplement for it though...i felt i did badly during the exam and i'm glad i didnt failed it...i'm kinda worried with my other courses though....*sigh*

i have a problem with someone lately...i dont know...we just kinda drifted apart from each other...i did try to do something about it but i was rejected a couple of time...what am i to do about it...i discussed about it with najib and he kinda have the same problem...does that mean i'm not the one at fault here???? so confused..this is the first time that i dont understand someone...what does that person wants me to do? What didi i have ever done to that person....? i'm so confused and i really hate this kind of situation..it makes me want to not be related to that person in any way...

but

i dont know...

i'm not the type of person who throw away my own friends.....

my friend is a part of my life

eventhough some people choose to ignore that and hurt my feelings...

i try to give thenm second chance...

because losing them means losing a part of myself...

please help me make this better.....

fast and furious indeed....

2009-04-05T10:56:00.002+08:00

annyeong....

went to watch fast and furious 4 at kiulap cinema last friday....how shud i rate it???
story line = 8/10
cars = 9/10
vin diesel = 10/10

hahahaha...vin diesel attracts me more than the cars...he is soooooo HOT....felt like i want to hug him....haha

its not badlah the story...somehow...i managed to enjoy myself regardless the subtitles being funny...they attually translated fast and furious as 'pantas and garang'...who the heck wud do that??? haahahah

didnt go back to my house this week...i have lots of assignment...all i'm willing to do except biomet...my god...how i hate math..puting the word 'bio' infront of biomet does not make me loves studying math...

why oh why????

fully booked~~~~~

2009-04-03T08:31:00.003+08:00

morning.....

i went to kiulap last night to watch fast and furious 4 but guess what? its fully booked....i was like DANG!!!!!! so i booked tickets for today instead at 1.30pm...i hope today will have lesser people...i dont like too many people at the cinema because they just dont want to shut up when the movie started....so annoying sometimes....

no movies so me, rozi and yumi went back to hostel..went to yumi's room and watched 'coming soon'... rozi started sreaming the minute the movie started..hahaha emosi banar c rojai.....i did screamed one or twice during the entire movie...c rozi apatah lagi...she almost masuk bawah katil ahahaha rozi rozi....i cant imagine how you wud acted if we really watch it at real cinema...hahaha very funny....

Nisah sms me this morning asking if i want to join them hiking at tasek lama...i rejected them hahaha...not because i dont like hiking but i have very bad kenangan with tasek lama.. i almost died cof exhaution there hahahahaha...never the mind...what past is past....

iheard this song in ERA...memories came flooding back to my already flooded mind ahahaha

if youre not the one - Daniel beddingfield

Daniel Bedingfield on 6Lyrics.com

what is this i'm feeling?

2009-04-01T20:55:00.002+08:00

hmmmmm...i dont know.....
i cant stop thinking about it...
hmmmmmm
ahhhhhhh
eeeeeeeee
what? what is this??
no it cant be.....
my heart is opening again?
but for who?
do u know?
because i myself dont know...
but its there...
and its killing me by the minute...
*sigh*

This time-wonder girls

2009-03-30T12:27:00.000+08:00

This time wonder girls
english version

why do i care about you
even though you hurt me?
Why do i feel this pain
when i don't think of you?
Promises replaying in my mind
I turn my head from
what is plain real now
And yet you end on up giving a less than perfect you

The tears i cry as i lay down to sleep,
are the tears for all the memories you left in my heart
I hope someday you'll be here with me
to wipe off my tear
I need you in my life and i'm afraid to be alone baby

Let my heart convince your heart,
my love
that it would be better this time,
if we try
Give our love the chance to soar again
just like in the past
One more chance to try and make it last

I love you baby and I need you baby
Without you in my life,
don't know how to survive
this loneliness i feel inside
Promise you i won't change my love,
my all... I will be the same

Sometimes i feel you,
maybe you are thinking of me? or maybe just a memory of how it used to be
It hurt so much the last time I replay
all our hugs and wonderful kisses
I've never felt such a big loss
until you said goodbye

Being alone tends to drive me insane
I don't know if I can take this pain
you wrote in my heart
Tell me, will i ever love another
you in this life
I can't get over you and
I am really missing you baby

Let my heart convince your heart,
my love
that it would be better this time,
if we try
Give our love the chance to soar again
just like in the past
One more chance to try and make it last

I love you baby and I need you baby
Without you in my life,
don't know how to survive
this loneliness i feel inside
Promise you i won't change my love,
my all... I will be the same

It's so hard for me
to get you off my mind
and my tears are only thing
I'll ever try to hide
Give us a second chance
to feel the love again
Maybe we could make it this time,
hear me, my love

Let my heart convince your heart,
my love
that it would be better this time,
if we try
Give our love the chance to soar again
just like in the past
One more chance to try and make it last

I love you baby and I need you baby
Without you in my life,
don't know how to survive
this loneliness i feel inside
Promise you i won't change my love,
my all... I will be the same

korean version

scares the hell out of me!!!!

2009-03-30T11:37:00.003+08:00

annyeong....

i'm currently at hostel's cafe...lazying around...i'm malas to go to animal lecture and chem lecture...ahahaha i know wah...but i'm too lazy wah...sama ja if i dont concentrate in cls..baik blajar dalam bilik saja...but then again currently i'm playing this very HORROR game by clive barker...clive barker is one of my favourite game makers of all time...i played 2 of his game including this one..really scary... the first one i played is UNDYING....its abaout vampires and werewolf and ghost...well the werewolf didnt looked like werewolf but i think its a werewolf....its the best game ever...from my point of view lah ah....i played when i was still in secondary school...i think in form 2 or 3..it s a long tym ago...i dont usually play PC games...i cant remember buttons well...so i prefer playstation..but clive barker games is an exception...

Clive barker

this is the trailer of the first clive barker game i playe...UNDYING

its really scary!!!!

this is part of the game

the game i'm currently playing....

CLIVE BARKER'S JERICHO....

This one almost make me pee in my jeans ahahaha nadalah...but i did jump from my sit once in a while because the zombies or what ever it is are really hard to kill...plus i have to take care of the whole troops soooo i was kinda a mess... and i need more time to finished my game than before....oh my...my gaming skills are getting rusty...i havent touch my PS 2 for ages now...and there's a new tomb raider edition in stores and i havent even bought it...i sacrificed a lot for Uni life *sigh* skadar aku ah.....

JERICHO TRAILER

EVEN WATCHING THIS MAKES MY HAND SWEATY..i havent met the one in this trailer yet...there's a PS3 version for this but i dont have PS3 so i play Pc version...

this is the into of the game once you started playing...

this is part of the game...

the thing i like about this game is that we can heal our injured partner...the thing that i dont like is that i have to take care of many people..its really hectic...maybe i dont have leadership power..ahahah....

oh this is soooo my song.....

2009-03-30T10:46:00.005+08:00

i think this song will affect so many people including myself *chewah*

this is the original version by dong bang shin ki

why have i fallen for you????

why have i fallen in you - dbsk

Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou? tohoshinki

Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou
Donna ni toki ga nagarete mo kimi wa zutto
Koko ni iru to omotteta noni
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi

Doushite kimi ni nani mo tsutaerarenakattan darou
Mainichi maiban tsunotteku omoi
Afuredasu kotoba
Wakatteta noni
Mou todokanai

Hajimete deatta sono hi kara
Kimi wo shitteita ki ga shittanda
Amari ni shizen ni tokekonde shimatta futari

Doko ni iku nori mo isshou de kimi ga iru koto ga touzen de
Bokura wa futari de otonaninatte kita
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi

Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou
Donna ni toki ga nagarete mo kimi wa zutto
Koko ni iru to omotteta noni
Mou kawanai

Tokubetsuna imi wo motsu kyou wo
Shiawase kao de tatsu kyou wo
Kireina sugata de kami sama ni negatteru kimi wo

Boku janai hito no tonari de
Shukufukusareteru sugata wo
Boku wa douyatte mioreba ii no darou

Doushite kimi ga suki ni natte shimattan darou
Ano koro no bokura no koto
Mou kawanai (kangaeta kangaeta)

Doushite kimi no te wo tsukami ubaenakattan darou
Donna ni toki ga nagarete mo kimi wa zutto
Boku no yoko ni iru hazu datta (sono mama ni)

Soredemo kimi ga boku no soba hanareteite mo
Eien ni kimi ga shiawase de iru koto
Tada negatteru
Tatoe sore ga donna ni sabishikute mo (sabishikute mo)

english translation

why have i fallen for you

Why have I fallen for you?
No matter how much time passes,
I thought that you would always be here
But you chose a different road

Why wasn't I able to convey to you?
My feelings that were growing everyday and night
The words begin to overflow
But I know they won't reach you now

From the first day that I met you
I felt like I knew you
And the two of us melted together so naturally

Wherever we would go, it would be together
It was so natural for you to be with me
We became adults together
But you chose a different road

Why have I fallen for you?
No matter how much time passes,
I thought that you would always be here (but not anymore)

For the day that holds a special meaning
For the day where we can stand with happy faces
For you looking beautiful while praying to god

Next to the person who is not me
There is the figure of someone truly blessed
So how am I supposed to see you off?

So why have I fallen for you?
We can't go back to that time, or how we were (I've thought it through)

Why wasn't I able to take your hand?
No matter how much time passes
You were supposed to be at my side (just like that)

But, even though I say that I need you close to me
I just pray that you will be happy forever
No matter how lonely that makes me (or how sad)

taken from:
http://www.imeem.com/people/d8Eb9CL/blogs/2008/06/19/njh_uNWB/dbskdoushite-kimi-wo-suki-ni-natte-shimattan-darou-english-lyrics

the official MV

this is the english version by soemone named JOanne...(never heard of her)

i have the mp3 and the mv with me..anyone interested..you can contact me aight???
have a nice day

COMING SOON~~~~~~

2009-03-30T10:31:00.001+08:00

i want to watch this movie.....
its coming soon in runei..we already have the trailer at the Mall..anyone wants to join???

Finally.....

2009-03-29T20:30:00.002+08:00

my heart skipped a beat when i saw it...
i was nervous when thinking about it..
i cant sleep
i cant eat
i cant concentrate on my work..
i felt helpless....
why???

because..........

I JUST WATCHED THE NEW HARRY POTTER TEASER.....
okay i kniw i'm a bit outdated but then again i just knew about the teaser....
from the looks of it i think its going to be good...i love half blood prince...i really hope the movie can pull it out this time...

HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE

a thing brunei shud consider doing in the future

2009-03-26T19:51:00.005+08:00

annyeonghasaeyo.....

i received this very amazing email from again one of my friends..i dont know where they always got these great emails when i dont received any hahahaha never the mind....

basically its some picture of padi field in Japan..after looking at these pics..i think brunei shud consider doing the same...as you all know young bruneians dont want to plant padi because they thought the job is too low profile for them....if we do this maybe it can help youngster to change their perspective in padi plantation...because these kinds of activity are considered the art of the highest creativity EVER...i would never have the slightest idea to do such things...maybe this can increase the standard of padi plantation..its not just a plantation but it is also an art..maybe by this ways youngster are no longer ashamed to plant padi....who knows right????? what do you think?????

cool right?????

nite nite peeps

mobile popcorn

2009-02-20T13:26:00.002+08:00

annyeong again....

i was checking my emails just now and i received this video from one of my friends..its really amazing..i think i wiill try it ou later..just to see if it's really working....

Pop Corn téléphone portable micro-ondes
Uploaded by sassiere

i think phone radiation have the same strenghth as microwave oven or something...just a thought... some said its a lie..just to promote their mobile brand but then again..i will test it just to make sure..

Can we end their misery?

2009-02-20T10:50:00.004+08:00

annyeong...

i was searching things for my microbio report this morning when i found this website. i watched one of his videos and i almost cried my eyes out...seriously... the video make me feel really sad and did i realized how bad bruneian have been treating these animals..well i'm not going to say further as religion is involved but what were being said in this videos really made me thinking...really really sad video..

A Dog's Life By David Cheok
View in HD Download 360p Version Visit David Cheok's ExposureRoom Videos Page

this video is taken from david cheok website...i dont know him but he made me realize something very important..thank you david....

breast parasite (WARNING: some pictures are really disturbing)

2009-02-17T15:54:00.004+08:00

Annyeonghasaeyo....

i found out something really disturbing from one of my friends today...i really-really unaware that such condition can occur in us women. I was chit chatting with yumi, vic and rabz at clt just now when yumi told me about this forwarded email she received about a breast being infected by parasites...she said that there was a picture of a women breast with larvae holes on them..i was sooo shocked and i didnt fully believe her...so i went back to hostel and googled it...

suprisingly...the matter existed..i was sooo shocked to see it ( i read about it while eating my mee goreng..good timing ahaha)...Before you scroll down..let me WARN you....Its pretty NASTY...so if you are not kuat iman type of person or if you never seen a women breast before please do not continue....

The picture of a breast infected larvae

This picture was spread to everyone and every women in the world through email....

This is the content of the email

… This is disgusting. Forward to all females! Wash your bras before you wear them! Please make it a habit from this point forward to wash your just-purchased undergarments before wearing them. This is sensitive. After anthropologist Susan McKinley came back home from an expedition in South America, she noticed a very strange rash on her left breast. Nobody knew what it was and she quickly dismissed it believing that the holes would leave in time. Upon her return she decided to see a doctor after she started developing intense pains. The doctor, not knowing the exact severity of the disease, gave her antibiotics and special creams. As time lapsed the pain did not subside and her left breast became more inflamed and started to bleed. She decided to bandage her sores; however, as Susan’s pain grew more intense she decided to seek help from a more certified doctor. Dr. Lynch could not diagnose the infection and told Susan to seek the aid of one of his colleagues who specializes in dermatology. Unfortunately, the doctor was on vacation. She waited for two weeks and finally was able to reach the dermatologist. Sadly, a life changing event was about to unfold during her appointment. To Miss McKinley’s surprise, after she removed the bandages, they found larvae growing and squirming within the pores and sores of her breast. Sometimes these wicked creatures would all together simultaneously move around into different crevices. What she didn’t know was that the holes were deeper than she had originally thought, for these larvae were feeding off the fat, tissue, and even the milk canals of her breast. Please share with as many women and men that you know. Our undergarments are made in different countries all over the world. They sit in boxes and go through many hands and exchanges before we purchase them. Please wash all newly purchased bras and underwear before wearing them. We do not know what parasites are in our clothing when we buy them.

taken from http://lighthousepatriotjournal.wordpress.com/2007/01/30/myth-blaster-the-case-of-breast-larvae-infestations/

BUT..guess what???? it was investigated by the truthorfiction.com that this picture is totally a LIE....a flower expert has confirmed that those holes( thought to be larvae hole) are actually water lotus seed..somehow whoever started the email is very good with photoshop...it looks so real..i tell you...

A lotus seeds

BUT wait a minute......

i was really unsatisfied about this being untrue so i investigated further into the matter...i found out that such cases does existed...it is called myasis of diptera (if i'm not mistaken)...there were cases reported in nigeria about such infection...you dont believe me?? dont worry i got a video to prove it.....

Again i warn you..if you are faint hearted...do not watch this video...and please dont watch it while you're eating okay??

ohooo...what do you think???? do you feels itchy? ahahahaha..
though some said its not true but i think its best to take precaution right girls? soo better wash anything you just bought not only your bras..aight???

have a nice day....

gee parody

2009-02-16T20:09:00.002+08:00

annyeong..i found some funny video on you tube..enjoy..

original video

remake from some highschool guys..really funny...

my all time favourite korean song

2009-02-13T12:02:00.004+08:00

annyeong...

sorry i had no idea what to blog nowadays so..i just wanna share my most favourite korean music videos...enjoy...(there're new songs but some old song)

these are only soem of my favourite...i have tonnes of them..if you want the videos or mp3..feel free to see me okay...hope u enjoyed it and have a nice day...

beautiful boys...

2009-02-02T17:20:00.004+08:00

annyeong~~~

There is a new obsession that girls in Brunei are currently doing...luckily i have not yet being sucked into this phenomena...some of my friends are willing to sit in front of the computers for hours just to do this..curious? okay lah..i tell you...lately...there is a new korean drama being released...actually it is a remake of the taiwanese drama 'meteor garden'..we also have the japanese version of the drama called 'hana yuri dongo' and the korean version is called 'boys over flower'.

you might think..what's soo special about the drama that it is being remake into 3 different languages..well let me tell you...

The drama is about a love story between a normal girl with a very RICH and HANDSOME guy..need i say more....the drama reflects what any girl would want to happened in their life...who wouldnt want to fall in love with a rich guy right...i think the story line of this drama attracts many young and hopeful girls to want to watch it...and dont forget the 'beautiful' and rich guys in it. Somehow allthe boys in the drama are all soo handsome..i managed to watch both taiwanese and japanese version..but not the korean version..the CD is not yet released in Brunei...so i just have to watch or maybe ill download it frm YT

meteor garden (taiwanese version)

hana yori dongo (japanese)

boys over flower (korean)

GONG XI FA CAI

2009-01-27T17:35:00.001+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL

WISHING YOU A YEAR FULL OF HAPPINESS AND PROSPERITY...

dangerously kawaii~~~~

2009-01-23T14:28:00.003+08:00

halo halo....

i've been taking interest in one of the cutest animal ever lately....it soooo cute that i even dreamht about it at night *no joke no joke* i was not aware of its existence before *and i'm sooo ashamed about it* but i do now~~~~ i found out about this animal when i was watching animal planet with my dad and *no i dont watch MTV all the time ok* and there it is....the most cutest thing EVER...oh i wish i can be in one of the breeding programmes for this animal but unfortunately brunei do not have this animal...maybe god already knows what i'll do to it if its here...hahahaha....

right everyone...Intoducing the....

THE RED PANDA

may be some of you thought that its some kind of raccon but nope...its a panda....actually the giant panda *the black and white ones if you're dont know* was named after the red panda.By the time they discovered the giant panda...they already discovered the red panda hundreds of years before...isnt that amazing....it eats the same kind of food as the giant panda, mostly bamboos. they can eat insects too if they want...i really really like this animal apart from tigers...look at its fluffy long tailed....my hand is sooo itchy right now....

'The red panda is dwarfed by the black-and-white giant that shares its name. These pandas typically grow to the size of a house cat, though their big, bushy tails add an additional 18 inches (46 centimeters). The pandas use their ringed tails as wraparound blankets in the chilly mountain heights.

The red panda shares the giant panda's rainy, high-altitude forest habitat, but has a wider range. Red pandas live in the mountains of Nepal and northern Myanmar (Burma), as well as in central China.

These animals spend most of their lives in trees and even sleep aloft. When foraging, they are most active at night as well as in the gloaming hours of dusk and dawn.

Red pandas have a taste for bamboo but, unlike their larger relatives, they eat many other foods as well—fruit, acorns, roots, and eggs. Like giant pandas, they have an extended wrist bone that functions almost like a thumb and greatly aids their grip.

They are shy and solitary except when mating. Females give birth in the spring and summer, typically to one to four young. Young red pandas remain in their nests for about 90 days, during which time their mother cares for them. (Males take little or no interest in their offspring.)

The red panda has given scientists taxonomic fits. It has been classified as a relative of the giant panda, and also of the raccoon, with which it shares a ringed tail. Currently, red pandas are considered members of their own unique family—the Ailuridae.

Red pandas are endangered, victims of deforestation. Their natural space is shrinking as more and more forests are destroyed by logging and the spread of agriculture.'

taken from: http://animals.nationalgeographic.com/animals/mammals/red-panda.html

it likes to spend time on tress....

Look at that red fur...so fluffy...

haiho human!!!! we come in peace

sooo cute

new layout and haemoglobin

2009-01-23T10:56:00.003+08:00

annyeong...

phew~~~~ it tooks me several hours to actually modified this blog...how is it? do u like it? i love it though..looks really cute and fresh....thanks to my hours and hours sitting infront of the computer seaching for a nice layout...this is the classic layout by the way...its really difficult than the beta layout i used to have in the past...a lot of editting here and there but i'm glad i managed to finish it....

Several days ago..if you all still remember..there's a blood donation thing going on at chancellor hall opened to those who are willing to donate their haemoglobin to those in need...it was once a upon a time ago since i last donated my blood...so i decided to donate again this year...as a responsible citizen i thought i should donate kan kan kan??? so off i went to CH...i was quite suprised that not so many UBDians were donating their blood....why not guys??? tsk tsk...only a handful of us were there....Donating blood is not as painful as some people would say it would...i didnt even feel anything even when the nurse inserted the needle...so guys next time...please help those in need...donate your blood..all you have to do is get tested, eat, donate your blood, chatting with the nurses, laughing loudly and yada yada yada until the packet is full...it was not that bad right...?

i had fun during the donation....i like the nurses..all of them were really friendly and funny. thats why i didnt feel nervous...i went with a couple of my friennds actually...hidayat, zieyah, mus and lee...all of them too donate their blood....eventhough some of them were afraid of needle but then again that doesnt stop them from donating...good job guys *clapping*

people who also donated blood...

Hidayat a.k.a pig tailed macaque..oho i didnt know monkey's blood is needed hohoho

zieyah...

dont forget to drink a lot of water...

mus...

'I dont like needle'

lee..

'i dont want to look at the needle'

'kyyyyaaaaahhh'

pump!pump! until its full

2009-01-15T19:58:00.006+08:00

Annyeonghasaeyo....

First of all.. i want to say...happy very belated new year to everyone..i have not been updating my blog for a long time..i know...i'm sorry...a lot has happened since my last post but its not something i want to share with everyone..i'm really sorry... i dont really know what to post today...but i feel really guilty not posting anything for a very long time....

i think you all now that i have lost something very dear to me recently (refer to my last post) since then i felt really lonely and empty inside...i cant help but looking at my cat's grave everytime i went out of the door....one day i realized that i cant be like this forever..i have to live a normal life...i thought of several possible ways to help me get over with my cat's death...after thinking for several days...i thought may be if i have new pet then my heart will not be a empty as it is now...AHA!!!!! that's the best solution...getting a new pet for myself.......

I really need a new pet...

I need a pet that can listen to my problems patiently

I need a pet that can fly to my rescue everytime i got into trouble

I need a pet that always be with me in sickness and in health

I need a pet that's always ready to take my calls

i need a pet that can find me no matter where i am

i need a pet that says sorry everytime eventhough i'm the one at fault

i need a pet that always eager to see me

i need a pet taht can prepare me breakfast every morning

i need a pet that can accept me no matter what kind of person i am

i need a pet that can chat with me 24/7

i need a pet that loves nature as much as i am

Finally, i need a pet that can be my super hero!!!!

so guys...what do you think my new pet is?

kekekeke

he left me

2008-12-13T14:31:00.004+08:00

annyeong...
its been a while..i know..kinda feeling down nowadays...why?? *sigh*...
i've lost something really special in my heart recently...
i was extremely sad on the day it chooses to leave me in this world...
for 3 years and a half....
i have given it all my love and care...
he was...should i say...the love of my life...
my love for him was as strong as ever as now since the first day i met him...
but good things were never made to last forever...
nothing is....

After only one day of suffering...
he finally left me...
i closed my eyes and i cried like i never cried before...
seeing him inhaling his last breath was extremely shocking to me...
maybe it was for the best..
maybe it was already his time to go....

but up till now i still loved him as i loved him the days before...
may he rest in peace..
my cat...
my ensi...

*crying*

November Baby~~~

2008-11-28T20:26:00.002+08:00

Dear Khy....

it feels as if i have known you all my life

but then i knew you just a few month ago...

i dont know why

but you holds a special place in my life...

may be because the memories we have shared

our laughter, our tears, our hapiness and our sadness

we've beeen through a lot...

you are one of those few people

who could understand me

and love me for who i am..

and i thank you for that...

today is a special day for you...

Happy Birthday

Baby Khy

and yes..i will not post your real age...old man...heeeee

exam comments....

2008-11-27T17:24:00.001+08:00

aloha~~~~`

i finished 3 out of 8 gruelling exam papers.....it was not that bad...hmmm...maybe animal phylo exam practical was a bit hard but i do hope i can pass it....
had my plant phylo exam today and it was a lil bit easier than expected...if only i did my revision earlier...may be..just maybe i could get a good grade but then i started my revision today at 3.30am...i overslept last night because a bad headache i had just after the prac exam...didnt really expect the question to be easy.....arghhh....its too lat for regrets....
next up is genetics exam......

i'm still fighting~~~

2008-11-27T17:22:00.001+08:00

3 out of 8 papers done!!!!!
so far soooo good....
i'm counting the days till my exam finish~~~~~~

practical exam~~~

2008-11-25T18:08:00.000+08:00

DUP DAP DUP DAP DUP DAP

fighting everyone!!!!!!

2008-11-17T09:35:00.002+08:00

annyeonghasaeyo~~~

Exam is coming everyone so we better buckle up..get ready with our weapons(pencil,pen etc etc etc), get ready with our winning strategy (lecture notes)..its time for WAR!!!!!

hiyaa..exam here i come!!!!!!!

but

before that we better prepare ourselves...study a lot..memorise a lot...pray a lot..no matter if you are.....

a girl

a boy....

make sure you have sufficient revision before the exam..no matter what happen around you...just concentrate on your revision.....

but then again....

dont study too hard....

OR ELSE

you blow out your brain....

you'll get overstressed....

the worse case scenario...

you'll get sick....

BUT

whatever happen during the exam....

never ever give up on yourself (no no no no no)

last but not least

good luck everyone

파이팅 (fighting)!!!!

EXAM EXAM EXAM!!!!! oh no

2008-11-17T09:23:00.002+08:00

annyeong...

now we officially entering our revision week which means exam is only a step away..oh noooo....its exam already...my god my god..time is running so fast....aisyh....i better buckle up and start my revision already.....here are my exam time table...

24.11.2008
CH2227 inorganic chemistry (3h)

26.11.2008
BI 2208 animal phylogeny and functional morphology practical exam

27.11.2008
BI 2206 plant phylogeny and functional morphology (3h)

29.11.2008
BI 2207 Genetics (2h)

2.12.2008
CH 2217 organic chemistry (2h)

4.12.2008
BI 2209 cell biology and biochemistry (2h)

6.12.2008
BI 2208 animal phylogeny and functional morphology

Those exams which i have highlighted are the one that i'm really scared and worried about..i hope i can do my best...and i hope you all can do ur best also...

good luck everyone...

i got beeped!!!!

2008-11-06T17:47:00.003+08:00

annyeong yorobeun~~~

ahhh...feeling relieved right now cuz i just finished my organic chemistry test...i guess the 2 hours of revision and i hour of napping in the library today was all worth it... the chem question was quite alright..most of it were taken from our tutorial question but then again there are question which i dont even have the slightest idea how to answer...spoiler banar..thought i was doing good sudah..i cant remember what PCC stands for? damn that PCC...hahaha...just because of this PCC thingie i cant answer the rest of the question under it...aisyh....

i guess people around me started to swear now..why? because exam is coming~~hahahahaha okay okay thats the lamest joke ever!!!!! exam is coming folks!!!! epppsss!!! takut saya~~~~

what i really scared of is the practical exam..OMG..what am i going to do especially mammal's dissection...*sigh* i have to start my revision now i think... the first draft of the exam timetable is already out...i checked my exam time and glad that non of my course exam is held on the same day..kekekeke puas hati saya....but some people were not so lucky...i heard that physical chem and organic chem exam will be on the same day..oho!!!!!! kesian mereka...glad i drop my physical chem if not maybe i flunked it for sure lah....nasib-nasib~~~~

ahhh...i do not go home tonight..because tommorow we have 'dance' practice and also we have to go to muara beach for the UBD beach carnival this sunday...KCC have their own game for people to play...and i hope people come to our camp lah...i think i'm going to be very busy tommorow..i also have to finish my inorganic chem assignment, my animal phylogeny report and also study my genetic test...ahh...soo many things to do with so little time...what am i to do...

oh yeah...i have a story to tell..i was at the library just before i went to my chem test...it wa already 3.30pm so i was ready to go out lah..but as i passed through the security gate...the damn thing bebunyi...it was beeping loudly wah..mcm malu jua ku tu...wmy library book punya pasal..but then again today was not the due date bah...sesuka hati saja ia bebunyi...aisyh...then i just realised that i got beeped hahaha okay...that is like the most boring story ever~~~

bye folks...

and tdont forget to study for your exam...*menghitung hari*

축하합니다 오빠~~~~~

2008-10-30T20:11:00.002+08:00

안녕하세유......

hmmm......i have a friend..he is sooo peresan that he is 'kawaii' (meaning cute in japanese) when he is not at all kawaii (hahaha)..he is my guardian when i flew to korea( dont make me laugh)..i always poke his stomach because it was sooo ladit..haha...today is his special day because its his convocation day.....

축하합니다 yung soon oppa~~~~~~

i hope you stop calling yourself kawaii now (just kidding)

once gaing congratulation oppa.....

Rainism~~~

2008-10-30T11:16:00.002+08:00

Annyeonghasaeyo....

Things i do during the 4 rainy days last 3 weeks....

uuu~ rainy days....my father most favourite day cuz he can do his most favourite thing..

'fish netting' or 'pukat' ing..

and i tagged along just to play with the water

a big big catfish..

Before

After

happy birthday to me...

2008-10-21T11:31:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my self...hahhaaha soooo lame!!!!

but never mind i'm really happy during my birthday this year because soo many people remembered about it...i guess my friends have increased compared to last year...congrates to myself....

i hope i'll be happier to be the 21 year old airul..haaaa

This year birthday was a lil bit special because i had celebrated it with some of my closest friends......YUMI, KHAI, LIZA, YUNGSOON, and AMANDA....the biggest thank you for you because you never failed to make me feel really really happy....isk isk....thanks for the cake it was really nice...my family loves it too...my god..you guys could never imagine how thankful i am to you for the birthday suprise at the mall last saturday...i had no idea about it seriously...or maybe i was too busy enjoying my hot and spicy KFC chicken..hahahaha anyways...i was deeply touched...if it was not at KFC at that time..i would have cried you know..hehehe just kidd...gumapseumnida chinguya....

my birthday cake

my two most favourite person: yungsoon(left) and yumi (right)

liza, me, yungsoon, khai and yumi...

youth camp 2

2008-10-05T18:37:00.001+08:00

Youth camps part 1

2008-10-05T17:58:00.003+08:00

As you all know already maybe bangas udah this story..i was selected to go to korea once upon a tym ago hahaha and then kan and then kan ada orang mengusut kan liat gambar wah..etah...ku post little by little lah gambar di sini..cuz i have almost 17 GB of pics wah..kepisan karang ku upload k...enjoy

hari raya pics

2008-10-05T17:37:00.004+08:00

off we go to raya

at izzaty's house

at ayen's house..had fun here...

at my friend's house

two old girl very happy to receive duit raya..thanks nad

more pics during mammal trappings

2008-10-05T17:00:00.002+08:00

Shhh..we want to catch them butterflies

year 4 bilogy senior, Shidah

Year 3 biology senior, Metis

Year 4 biology senior, Catherine
year 3 biology senior, kelly

At bang nalud

this is a mueliri

Small mammals trappings

2008-10-01T20:49:00.016+08:00

MAMMAL TRAPPINGS AT DISTURBED FOREST 2.

Catherine's Army (heh heh)

from left: me, chee chang (sit), hidayat and catherine

First animal caught: Tupaia Picta

Etherization of animals for DNA sampling by senior shidah

OMONA~~ look its a pig-tailed macaque

An exhausted pig-tailed macaque. he was trained by me to do many things eg. catching butterflies and put banana in a trap instead of eating them hahaha

fully recuperate macaque

hidayat and izyan...chilling out~~~

go catch some butterflies macaque!!!

UBD site

me training my macaque to catch butterflies..he even knows how to use butterflies net now....

what i do lately~

2008-09-30T23:05:00.005+08:00

Annyeong hasaeyo homo sapienz…

Hemhemhem no I’m not dead yet..i’m just dead busy saja hahaha serious banar!!!! Like I said before I don’t know what I spent my time on but never the mind people…I’m here to report on my latest happenings…may be I’m back for good…maybe I’m back and gone again for weeks..like chipsmore wah hahaha nadawah…if I have time then I’ll update frequently…cant use internet often lately…the wave connection at my room in hostel are damn lousy..it cant even be connected to my lappy..seriously someone ought to fix the wave connection at UBD…tried using internet in the library but the connection there was extralicious damn lousy hahaha not even sure if that’s a word….so cant really update my blog often.Soo try to understand my situation my peminat hahahah *perasan perempuan ani*lots of my friend been complaining about me not updating my blog..seriously sorry bah..i have a life bah..okay bah…I update today bah…even one of my senior noticed my not updated blog..malu myself you know~~~ been involved in a lot of BIOCOP activities lately…one of them is the small mammal trappings.

I’ve been doing it for 3 days already...macam ketagih pulang ku kan buat small mammals trappings because it was sooo fuuunnn,…at least from my point of view lah…to be honest…I don’t want to volunteer at first because if I volunteer I will have to spend my mid-sem break in the forest…I’ve been waiting for this break for ages because I was planning to hibernate myself for the whole 7 days of holiday sleeping my ass off but then again I’m glad I signed up my name because I’ve gained a lot of knowledge from there….some of my friend have asked me..why the hell do you want to spend almost half of your holiday in the forest? At first I don’t know the answer but after 3 days…I think I know the answer already…

On the first day I was still unsure whether I want to volunteer or not..i kept whining to my friend Izyan (who was also volunteering) all the way to UBD…sasak kali ya c izyan ah arah aku hehehe sorry bah…I kept saying to her ‘why oh why am I doing this?’ Izyan with her usual selamba-self only laughed at me..i think she also don’t know why she wants to volunteer…

Then we go to tutong or more specifically to sungai damit where the forest was situated. Izyan, hidayat, chee chang and myself were assigned to help my year 4 biology senior, Catherine. We were doing disturbed forest 2. Izyan and I was responsible for rebaiting point A traps. In the middle of rebaiting the traps…I was already sweating like a pig…an army of mosquitos were buzzing around my ears trying their best to annoy me…the rattans almost made me half naked by tearing my clothes off hahaha exageratting banar…and the sound of the forest was so loud but soo quiet at the same time..i don’t know how to explain it..but I have this very nice feeling at the pit my stomach..a very comfortable feeling…then at that very moment…I realized why…why I’m willing to spend almost half of my 7 days only mid-sem break in the jungle..its pure satisfaction wah to be in the forest surrounded by trees, the sound of the insect…its really hard to explain but all I can say is that its really nice to be one with nature chewah chewah!!!

The second day was to check all the traps to see if any animals were caught…and there were…..The first animal caught was a tupaia picta…if you look at me close enough the moment I saw the picta..maybe..maybe…you could see me blushing with pure satisfaction..hahahaha I know its sekadar pulang but then again…I was really happy we actually caught something that day….i was glowing with happiness wah hahahaha I sounded as if I’m pregnant. actually we caught 7 or 8 aniamls that day..not really sure…but I ‘m happy nevertheless…..

Tomorrow is still puasa…so I’m planning to volunteer again…just to see if the condition gets better.i’ve learnt a lot from Catherine…now I know how to confidently tell the sex of the animal, know how to weigh the animal, know how to mark the animal and most importantly know how to identified the animals and recognise their significant features…I also had the chance to witness the etherization of animals for DNA sampling from another senior, shidah…which happened today…alright I’m not going to bore you with my lame story…lets see some pics of my recent activities…enjoy yorobeun…

RAT TRAPPINGS AT GADONG WET MARKET

before rat trappings

Dirul is still thinking what to order heh heh kidding dirul

The homo sapiens who are present at escapade before Trappings

Party sushi set ordered by shafie and izzat..may be to celebrate our rat trappings hahaha nadawah~

we had a rat trappings activities with Dr charles and some seniors last saturday. can you actually believed that we ate sushi just before we went to the market and catch the ewiie rats..hahahaha thank goodness i didnt actually puke when we were in the fish market...and yes we were catching RATS at the gadong fish markets..yes there were rats..lots of them actually...and yes you can see them running around the market and you can hear them chirping everywhere maybe cursing at us for disturbing their area..who knows right?...so we went around inside the market, searched for a perfect spot to put the trap, leave it for one hour..

After 1 hour we were really eager to see if we caught any rats

yuhuu..rats where are you???

unfortunately...i didnt manage to catch any of those rats *damn you damn you* some of my friends did though...ish sooo jealous eh...i want a RAT too bah...not my luck kali..sasak my heart banar!!!!

after trappings

no rats was successfully caught by us...huhuhu

3 ways to kill a rat ( knowledge gained from my bio senior , metis wong)

1. hold its head..then pull its tail hard (i think)..the spine will break and the rat die

2. by gas eg. carbon dioxide

3. the technician method...simple: just whack the rat hard on a table *ewwww..so kesian one*

updates at last...

2008-09-16T10:13:00.001+08:00

annyeonghasaeyo....

i know~ i know... i've been missing in action for the last couples of week....i'm not goin to lie to you but for the past few weeks..i was damn as hell BUSY...with assignments..with dissection...with practicals...with more practicals...and etc etc etc...

seriously...i mean SERIOUSLY...i havent been living myself as me lately....i was living as a typical UNi student who do not even have time to pee in the toilet hahahaha now that's super exagerating...oh my god...now i'm a NERD......haaaaa no lah...not that serious....

but i'm really hairan with myself...i didnt have time to enjoy but then again...i have so many unfinish assignments and practical report....what did i do with my time....writing blogs in the library???? i dont think so...so in the end...i dont know what i spent my time on....days passed dooo quickly and i havent been able to catch up 100% of the things that missed when i'm in Korea...uh oh...big trouble~~~~~

i've been worrying about something lately......i'm really worried about my dissection practicals....somehow i manage to make myself as the most stupides person everytime i have my dissection practicals...i dont know why but i just happened spontaneously...maybe its because of sir char;es always breathing down your neck evertym you want to cut something off or is it because i'm just too stupid in dissection....*sigh*
entah lah...saya pun tak tahu~

i've not upload any of my korean pics...if i have time and if the library internet connection is strong enough...i might just post it after this...i hope its working~~~

alright...
annyeong...

I MISS BRUNEI

2008-08-11T22:23:00.002+08:00

annyeonghasaeyo yorobeun!!!!

ahhhhhh wiiiiiii hiiiiiiiii ooooohhhhhhh!!!its been the very long tym since i'm onlyning hahaha hem hem guess where i am now????? guess..guess guess? yes.....i'm in KOREA yorobeun..i'm in korea!!!wiiiiihooooo...actually this is the 2nd week i'm here for the camp. currently we are staying at the hyundai sung woo resort which is like 40 miles out of seoul...no shopping malls..only mountains and grass and old people havin some vacation...ummma!!!!! but never the less its quite fun here...i met a lot of new friends (well..sort off).

today was quite fun...we had a korean language performance today and we did the ballon dance from dbsk..it was sooo cute..i cant wait to upload it here once i'm back in Brunei....not that i'm praising myself but really i thought our performance was great though not the best...we didnt win anything though but who cares...at least we had fun..i had great bruneian teamates with me who worked hard memorising the steps...my god they managed to memorize the steps in just 2 days....not forgetting our beloved korean oppa!!! Yang myung Hun oppa!!!!! gumapta...you dance very well oppa dont worry..!!! saranghae~ and also to our beloved dongsaeng....song hae chan..thanks for singing for us..you were great...to all the bruneian deligates...you guys are the very best of prople i have ever met (emotional)...

god..i never realized how fast time past..1 more week before i go back home....ahhh..i'm so gonna miss it here...

i'm worried about my lectures...aiyaa...eventhough i'm in korea i still remember you doctor charles....hmmm

i'm so gonna poet a lot of photos once i come home...dont worry okay guys....btw the food here are great.i tried a lot of it...ja jang myun is the best..i so very like it !!!! ahhh i think i have to go now...i'm goin to be home sooon.... annyeong yorobeun!!!!

long lost updates..

2008-07-17T22:12:00.014+08:00

안 녕 하 세 요!!(Annyeonghasaeyo..)

I’m back~…arghh I officially hate that word now..Nowadays I keep on disappearing and appearing, updating and not updating, kejap ada-kejap tak ada..macam chipmore…well I can’t help it..I’ve been busy lately with my non-stop lecturer hunting, feeding my kittens, practicing my joget moves, feeding my cat again, continue my lecturer hunting again..practice again..it goes on and on and on…boy oh boy..there goes my so-called 3 months of joyful holiday…

I’ve been spending a lot of my time at home with my 5 little cute kittens…they have eye-infection so I have to give them extra care…I went to the vet last week with my mom…when I showed him( the vet-person haha) my eye infected kitten, he just said ‘ owh..ank kucing ani terlalu damit, dtg lagi lapas 2 bulan…next!’ kan ku bari cakap doctor atu, takut ku inda tecontrol marahku, kan inda di bagi ckap..membari garam ati(nah tekeluar Bruneian ku)..like we goin there was a totally waste of our time..thanks to my mom for giving me her ‘don’t-even-think-about-it-look, if not, I don’t know what I’ll do to that man….once I start my super-duper powerful yapping about things you’re supposed to do and things you’re not supposed to do, even that green guy with the bulking muscle whom always throw cars and soldier tanks away and eats flying missiles that’s blocks his way....hmmm what’s his name? ah ha… even that green guy named ‘hulk’ can’t help that rude vet-person. why can’t they inform people small kittens cannot be treated..then we understand and we won’t ‘paloi2’ bring out kitten there…ish!!

In the end, we buy eye medicine from pet vision..very expansive one…what to do..for the love of my kittens…actually my mom doesn’t allow me to keep it..she’s giving it to someone else and all of the kittens were fully booked by her friends don’t really mind…just make sure they treat them well enough but for now until they are old enough to feed on their own..I will be in charge of their welfare..aisyemen!!! I sounded like a mother lah…haaaaa I just love kittens… they’re soo cute and cuddly. Thanks to these little kittens, I totally forgot about the rude vet-person and stopped cursing him..

One of my kittens learnt a new trick today..she can hold the milk bottle by herself now..uuuu~..isn’t that amazing..where else you can see a kitten holding a bottle by itself..very clever mah my kitten just like the owner mah..wawaw perasan banget!!
What? You don’t believe me kh? Orite-orite see for yourself lah..
Unbelieveable? believe it!

ahh..look at her..isnt she's cute?

It’s getting pretty steamy here in Brunei..don’t you think so? It’s getting hotter by day..my god..I sweat like a man now…thank god I don’t smell like one..thanks to my 24 hours protection deodorant..apakan..mempromo!!!! As a result, I cut my hair a few weeks back and dyed it all black..but that doesn’t help a bit, I still feels really really hot…and don’t forget my fringe (or bangs or whatever you want to call it)…my bangs are making it all worst..every time I start sweating, it’ll stick on my forehead making me looked like I have a punani haircut..my god..hair disaster… to prevent my bangs to stick again, I have this new hairstyle which is very cute..even one of my Korean star use it. Maybe they have heat problem as well…

introducing the apple hairstyle
having your bangs sticking on your forehead? try the above solution
its free, simple cute and it makes your forehead more cooler than before *lame*

Even g-dragon (big bang) agrees with me

I also wants to include the Korean music chart on the 2nd week of July. I know some of you are crazy with Korean songs…welcome to the club guys..if u want Korean songs..I have tons of it..Just contact2 me ahh
(Taken from soompi.com)

1. (+16) Brown Eyes - 가지마 가지마 (Don't Leave Don't Leave) : 892 *** 1 WEEK NO. 1 *** + BIGGEST MOVER OF THE WEEK
2. (--) Tae Yang - 나만 바라봐 (Watching only you) : 885

3. (-2) Wonder Girls - So Hot : 789

4. (--) Shinee - 누난 너무 예뻐 (Noona's Pretty (Replay)) : 730

5. (--) Alex - 그대라면 (If It's You) : 700

6. (-3) V.O.S - Beautiful Life : 691

7. (+3) Ok Ju Hyun - Honey : 689

8. (+3) Sung Shi Kyung - 안녕 나의 사랑 (Goodbye My Love) : 688

9. (-3) Super Junior Happy - 요리왕 (Cooking? Cooking!) : 634

10. (+5) Mighty Mouth (feat. Sun Ye) - 에너지 (Energy) : 599
this one is taken from music bank k-chart

so hot is still owning the chart in music. may be i shud change my song to so hot...hope you all enjoy the song...

annyeong *bow*
얀 티

hmmmm...

2008-07-07T14:03:00.002+08:00

annyyyyeeeeongg!!*sleepy*

i'm at home now with nothing to do and nothing to even think about..i have no idea what to write but yet i am writing somethin right now..really-really have nothing to do..i dont know but i really have nothing to do but i dont want my blog to be so outdated but then again i really have nothing to do and write and think and....
what are YOU doing right now? other than reading this lousy post? are you thinking of loved ones? are thinking on how to get back at your enemy? are you thinking of your friends or family? or are you thinking of strategies on how to stay awake doing the boring lectures next semester? well, what ever are you thinking right now.. i still dont have what to think about or care or write or tell or......
i want to post some kpop news but the conection was just d*** lousy...so i hve nothing to write...later i'm goin to have a joget practice but now i have nothing to write or do? do you have some good ideas to write...arrrghhh soooo bored to death...*sigh*

i have nothing to write!!!

annyeong...

no pain no gain...

2008-07-01T15:39:00.002+08:00

Annyeonghasaeyo!!!
Now I officially believe when someone said ‘no pain no gain!’ why? I’ve been busy lately with my lecturer-hunting…as you all know, I will fly off to south korea *yahoo!* at the end of July for the youth camp.i was quite happy about it since I first heard about the news at Bukit Patoi and I just cant seem to stop blushing with pure excitement everytime I think about eating kimchi, drinking korean soju and washing my eyes with cute and handsome korean guys..but then again good things do not come cheap. We have to prepare many things for the camp such as filling up our brain with information about Brunei, memorizing the national anthem, trying to spell ‘brunei darussalam’ correctly…doing this stuffs are really extra exhausting. I don’t feel like I’m having my 3 months holiday at all…but that’s not the worst part. Last week, during our last meeting with the other youth camp member, Hajjar mentioned something about us have to apply for an on leave letter to inform them that we will not be able to attend the lectures..*uh oh!!!* Both yumi and I have no whatsoever idea that we have to apply any whatsoever on leave letter from HEP. So last monday, we went to HEP and asked for the borang. When she gave us the borang, she told us that we have to make another letter informing that we’re leaving for the event. We also have to ask all the lecturers concerned to sign the on leave application form…we were like WHAT THE h***! We never knew that we have to do so many things just to apply for holidays..geez!!!!

So off we went to see the lecturers involved. When I finally found one…guess what happened!!! The lecturer refused to signed the paper..she said something about she’s not the one to give permission for student to be absent from lectures…that’s the HEP job to give the permisiion.i was DUMBFOUNDED! What am I supposed to do..if she don’t sign the papers I will not be able to go to the camp..how?how?HOW?????? if I were to cancel it..it will be too late….and I already paid the d*** ticket!!!...what to do?what to do? Arghhh!!!! All my chem lecturers were on leave so I have to find them next week. I managed to get Dr. charles to sign though *thanks sir* I will do well in your course!!i will not dissapoint you..thanks for believing in me *unlike some lecturers*….

The lecturer – hunting was hard plus you have to listen to their lectures about missing 2 weeks of lectures and stuff…but why cant they just believe in me! I think I can catch up with it. I have very helpful friends whom always ready to help me whenever I need help…so I don’t see any problem in me goin to the cam *sigh* sedih my heart!!!!

i guess thats all for now...annyeong

pregnant men!!!

2008-06-27T11:04:00.002+08:00

annyeong...

just wanna do an update on a very amazing thing i saw on TV.I'm not sure if you're already knows about it or not...

I was watching historyy channel last night and i saw this advertisment about otther programmes which showed a documentary about a man who is pregnant...A MAN PREGNANT!!!!!! that is amazing to the very..They even show his pregnant pictures and boy!!! With that huge tummy of his..he is sure pregnant. i'm not sure if he already given birth to the baby...i decided to googled it.....this is what i found....

The name of the pregnant guy is Mr.Lee MingWei. He's an artist (art).I think they did an experimemt to see whether man can be pregnat or not and he did got pregnant.Firstly, he was given female hormone so that his condition is acceptable for pregnancy. Thn they use the IVF technique for the implantation of the embryo.(IVF=in vitro fertilization).The implantation of embryo usually happens at the Uterus of a women but since men dont have Uterus so the embryo was planted on the abdominal cavity( just under or into the peritoneum).Other than the embryo, the placenta was also implanted there.

Once the implantation was completed, Mr.Lee stopped taking hormones beause the embryo itself will secretes enough hormones for its own growth. His Health condition was checked regularly by the doctors who were responsible with the research.Finally, Mr.Lee is expected to give birth through open surgery (caesarean section)

Mr.Lee MingWei

source of information:www.malepregnancy.com

wah...dont you guy just think its amazing...? I know some people disapprove with such things but then again i believe in science and i accept things like this...This is good news for the gays community..every one deserves hapiness no matter what and how they are in this world.

annyeong!

I'm free~~~~~

2008-06-21T21:03:00.002+08:00

annyeong!!!!
today i'm very the happy...why? because i have accomplished two great things today....you want to know? you want? you want? I was just exagerrating..takke it easy...but nevertheless i am happy today...i have managed to hand in my Bukit patoi's report on time...my sleepless night was worth it after all....i know we were given 2 whole weeks to finish it but you guys know how our brains works right? for the last 1 week and 6 days..my brain refused to squeeze out any useful information to write on the report and finally last night because of my high level of stress, i guess my brain sympathized me so it willingly poured out very useful information...and walaa!!! the reports were finijshed and i went to sleep at 6 am...
Another big thing is that the exam results came out today (good timing)..my results was..well...it was ok..actually it was lower than i expected it to be. My overall grade was lower than last semester...no oh no!!!!! but then again i'm quite grateful that i didnt flunked my math..Yay!! no math is out of my life and i can concentrate wholly with my major and minor.....
hmm..i guess thats all..annyeong everyone...
p.s sorry if my post is too lame that it bored you to death...i just do not know what to write yet..but dont worry folks..i'll be back to my usual self in no time.....see ya..

I'm back~~

2008-06-10T13:46:00.004+08:00

Annyeong!!!!!!

After 3 days of hibernating myself at home, i finally began to restart my whole system and i finally have the mood to open up the internet and melawat-lawat my blog..now i'm at LaMee rest with my dear chingu- yumi shi!!! The time i spent at bukit patoi was super-duper-patoilicious exhausting....that why i need at least 3 days to build up my energy back....Bukit patoi activities was very fun..i like!!! of all the activities my favourite was...jeng je jeng....Bat survey!!!! i know...its a bit weird...at first i was like ' why the heck shud we be interested with bats?' but when i was there up at bukit patoi with sir lane, our bat senior, saleha and some bunch of my coursemates, waiting for the bats and hearing the first sound of bats using the bat detector and hetrodining..my adrenaline was pumping off the limit.i was overly excited..i tell you!!!! that first sound gave me the fullest satisfaction of all...all that waiting...all that donating-my-blood-to-the-mosquitoes, it was all worth that first sound. we were able to see the bats in action catching the insects.we also know how bats sound like when they're feeding on the insects..interesting eh?

i never expecting that i would like bats survey but they were fun. we set up a bat trap. we caught only one cute tiny and fluffy little bat. i forgot the name but it was one of the most common bats in Brunei. it was very cute.....Sir lane and senior saleha were very nice and they seemed to have a thorough knowledge about bats (duh~)

our mammals survey went quite well..the thing that i dont like about mammal trappings was that it took a lot of our energy. On the first day when we set up the traps (our point was at point 600 m), i was half-crying..mostly because of the rattans which kept annoying me all the way. The path was slippery with a lot of boulders.i did a lot of what dirul termed as 'slide-dance' because my left leg keep sliding off the ground... it was very hard...and we have problem selecting a location to place our traps..in the end we just placed it wherever we feel logical.

On the second day, we had our mammal trappings feedback from our dear seniors. They checked our traps in the earlier morning. Our point feedbacks were that many of our traps were facing a dead end..uh oh..a dead end? i never thought about that before!!!! and that our traps were not sensitive enough...i think thats all from our senior.
The next day we had to check the traps ourselves. when we did, the seniors were right, most of our traps were facing a dead end. so we changed most of it. The second time doing the trappings was not as bad as the first one...and we did learn from our mistakes...we even did an abboreal trap (~uuuu~)....As a result, the animal caught from our trap increased and overall, in 5 days point 6 have caught altogether 18 animals....high-5 to all point 6 people...our greatest appreciation also to all the seniors who worked hard in helping us during our stay at bukit patoi...without you guys..we may not realized that dead end existed in the forest...gumapsemnida......

The rest of the days went very well...the presentation part was...well...no comment...what happened in patoi, stays in patoi....

another good news...actually yumi and I just came back fom the korean embassy. we had a meeting about the youth camp which will be held in july at Korea..yes..yes...we were selected to participate Yay!!!(me is so kambang)...10 people were selected to represent Brunei, 6 from UBD and the rest are from Voc, ISB and technical....so congrates all who were selected and we will try our best to make Brunei PROUD...aja-aja fighting!!!!

i failed to upload the pics...the connection sucks here...everyone do not surf at Lamee...!!...i'll post it next time...k bye

its time to let you go....

2008-05-30T14:42:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling a bit down right now..no..no..its not about which clothes i should bring to bukit patoi..its about something...something deep and personal.i realized something...something which i really want to have or be with but i couldn't.there's a huge gap between us and i guess i should just stop... stop waiting for you...*sigh*

So bad..a person a like you..
Why did you take my heart without my permission?
I'm living with so much difficulty
But you dont even know.

I know.. that its not me
That i'm not worthy enough for even a blink of your eye
But sometimes
cant you share your smile with me too?
Even if its not love

*Please turn back just once sometime
If I wait endlessly like this today
Again its the one word in my heart that I cant keep inside
I love you.

Yesterday, I layed my head on my desk
And I think I fell asleep grieving for you
When I opened my eyes,
the tears had smudged
Your name and hopeless doodles

As I look at your back image
which I got so used to
I say those silent tear-like words,
I love you.

hmm...my stomach hurt!!!!

bukit patoi...here i come!!!!

2008-05-29T19:58:00.002+08:00

annyeong....!!!!
yesterday, we had bio meeting for the bukit patoi fieldtrip we're going to have from 1st june - 6th june...Sir charles explained to us more or less about what we'll be doing there on the 1st day. we were also given information about the accomodation. the girls will be staying at the pusat belia place (i think) and the guys will be staying at a new place about 5 km from the pusat belia (wow..talk about separation).

then, sir charles told us what to do on the first day. Basically, we'll be setting up small mammals traps at bukit patoi. Yay..i really love small mammals...i hope we can catch cute little mouse...i love cute little mammals... right, i'm still deciding what to bring and what not to bring.Like sir charles said, do not bring your 365 days of changing..hahaha..you're funny sir..you know us student very well...i've been staring at the bundles of clothes sitting infront of me and i just cant decide....erghhh...why is it so difficult.its just clothes...

i've other problem also,,like how much money should i bring to pay for my food for 6 days? should i bring my laptop or not? should i bring some food with me or do should i just buy some fast food at temburong....? errgghhhh...i dont know, my friends also dont know...what am i suppose to do...eomma!!!!!!

i remembered sir charles said that, 'this is the time in which you can socialize with your lecturers. when he said that, i suddenly realized that he was right. i never really had the chance to be connected with all my bio lecturers yet...talk about taking time aku ah...may be i should take this chance to know how human they are..wawawa i'm sorry sir..i was just kidding but i'm serious i'm rellay goin to try to get to know them better...

i have to go now..i cant take my eyes off that bundles of clothes. i'm yet to decide what to bring... i'm goin to mengusut to my mom...eomma!!!!

Nite-nite

are they really an item?

2008-05-26T11:32:00.004+08:00

my last post was about xiah junsu of dbsg being an item with tae yeon of snsd? Are they really in relationship? really? i mean..seriously? wow..i have this recent pics by fans who had seen both of them hanging out alone...seriously xiah..you can't be that desperate? i know you guys never have time to date anyone with your busy schedule and stuff but tae yeon...come on!!!! pick someone else please...tae yeon is plastic, not real...i can smell it from here..i dont like her..no no let me correct that..i dont like all the SNSD girls. they're just a bunch of pretty face with only 4.99999% of them who actually can sings. the rest just know how to move their buttocks...come on lah xiah. Dont dissapoint your fans like this. i know someone feelings will be crushed seeing this news *nudge masayumi*.. these are some pics i have taken from shenyuepop.com

xiah and tae yeon

xiah and tae yeon seen hanging out together

tae yeon was seen patting xiah's back

The more i stared at the pics..the greater the urge for me to puke...i hate SNSD that much..

for all SNSD haters..do not stop criticizing them

'pisang panas' gossip

2008-05-24T10:53:00.005+08:00

This is a H.O.T gossip for you dong bang shin gi fans....Xiah of dbsg is rumored to be an item with one of the SNSD (eeww) girls..non other than tae yeon..they were seen holding each other hand during the dbsg and snsd joint performance. What? you dont believe me eh? well, see for yourselves...eventhough xiah is not my favourite in dbsg but then again seeing him with 'taeyeon'...i was like....cant he picked someone else? tae yeon is a no no lah xiah...pick someone hot like...hmmm...emmm...ah ha...i dont have anyone to recommend!! dont be too dissapointed you dbsg lovers..we still have the other four haaaaaaa!

taken from krnloop.wordpress.com

You’re always be my ‘idol’

2008-05-23T16:36:00.002+08:00

Annyeong…

I havent upadated for quite a while lately..i’ve been busy..you know..spending my 3 months holiday and stuff…*memajal*

Oh oh did you guys watched the american idol season 7 finale yesterday? The results SUCKS big time!!!! I was wishing for david achuletta to be AI since the day he auditioned for it but jen-je-jeng he didn’t win!!!! How could they let whats-his- name win this AI season. His voice was not that great..his voice was extraodinary-ordinary…why did they choose him instead of achuletta. Achuletta’s voice was great. The three song he sang at the last concert were great even simon cowell said that it was a knock out that night but why? Amereica why??????

If I were to compare achuletta’s voice with whats-his-name voice, achuletta have far better voice than his. Why cant america choose an idol with a voice which is not already out there. Whats-his-name voice was just common, its almost the same like chris daughtry, nickleback, switchfoot and yadayadayada but achuletta’s voice is the same as…let me see…hmm…NO ONE!!! Arghh…I’m still frustrated with the results. This is the second time that america made a wrong decision. First was when they made Jordan sparks as the 6th AI…and she what? Took almost 2 years to produce her own album whereas blake’s album was on sale long before that!!!

Eventhough I’m not satisfied with the result, what can I do…? For me achuletta still won AI in form of talent..he just don’t have enough votes…For me achuletta is always the idol in me….*kejiwa*

slice them meat

2008-05-18T19:05:00.002+08:00

Place:my residence
Time:around 7.00 am

My mum: den bagun den aher udah ni….
Me: emmmm…hmmm *snuggles*

5 mins later...

My muM: den bangun den, inda sampat kita menulung orang karang kalau aher…
Me: 5 minits ma, 5 minit….

15 minutes later

My mum: eh..cubatah bangun lakas-lakas, dari tadi dah ku membanguni anak-anak ani inda merati…aher karang kita kesana. Awal kita jalan, awal kita balik, cubatah mandi lakas-lakas and yadayadayada..
Me : quickly jumped out off bed before my mum starts her infamous blabbering

That’s how my ever so sweet Sunday began.By goin to some place in Sungai Damit to helped them prepare for the 14th day of funeral means it’s the 14th day since that person died. In this case, that person was my late grandfather whom I never knew much about but he seemed to be someone very dear to my father because I saw my dad crying on the day he died.

We arrived around 8-ish, people were already swarming the place bringing their own tools. Oh didn’t I tell you? We are goin to ‘mengarat daging’ there that’s why people were bringing their own knives. I was pretty excited, I never seen a buffolo being killed before and I’m very ready to see one. When we got to the place where they were suppose to sacrifice the buffolo, I can already see people hanging the leg up..damn I missed it!!!!

People were already started slicing the meat into smaller pieces and my dear mum decided to join the party and dragged me into it too. She gave me a knife and a big red chunk of freshly killed buffolo meat. I gave her my doggy eye hoping that she would just let me sit there and watched them but she ignored me. ‘karat damit-damit daging tu’ she said

I have no other choice and started slicing the meat but suddenly the meat moved by itself ~uuuu~, I was so shocked that I almost threw my knife away…I looked around but other people didn’t seemed to notice. I wanted to asked my mum but me soo malu to ask. ‘sekulah saja tinggi-tinggi’ she would say.

Ignoring the of the earlier incident, I started slicing the meat really quickly, the meat moved at the first three cut but It stopped after a while. Hmmm…I wondered why??
Then I got used to the moving meat and start mengarat-ing like a pro. The situation was beginning to get more merrier as more village people came. It was filled with laughter and people joking around with each other (yes, it is a funeral ocassion) maybe they were trying to forget the sadness they felt few days ago..or maybe they were just too happy because they were given one plastic of meat each..tsk tsk..village people!!

As I watched around me, people were helping each other doing everything, cutting the veggies, slicing the meat, cooking the food and lalalala. ‘ wow, the sense of bergotong royong still existed in these people’ Watching all these scenes, I felt that I was sucked into the time when catering services havent exist. This is what I called ‘village people’. They still practised the gotong-royong’ thingie. They still helped each other, they still laughed with each other no matter what age group they are, they still teased each other and laughed about it eventhough I didnt understand what they were saying, I can sense the warmth of familiness in that situation. The warmth that I think began to ceased in us youngster. Will there be the same situation in the future? Will we be in this kind of situation 20 years from now, when we’re older? Will we be at each other house doing everything together when there’s a function or do we just order catering services? This is the unknown of life I think. But what is known is that today’s youngster have changed. The sense of familiness and friendship do not mean anything to them.

Ohooo..what am I talking about? I becoming more and more like my mum, blabbering about things…this was my thought when I was mengarat-ing the daging. Eventhough the weather was hot at that time but seeing the toothless smiles of all my nini’s and babu’s, it was all worth it. It was not fun but it helped me to realised something that I cant even explained in words. I’m glad my mum brought mere there..thanks mum.

I was sooo tired that when we got home, I took a bath and went straight to bed and woke up at 5-ish. Arghh..what a way to spend your ever so sweet sunday

To you sweet people, dont throw away your sense of gotong-royong okey!!!

tagged...again?

2008-05-17T13:49:00.002+08:00

Truly Jobless
Tagged by Nana again

The Basics:

Hair Color:
hmm..brown? artificial x ah

Eye Color:
brownish –black..wuahaha what is that suppose to mean….

Profession:
The most important person in UBD..the undegraduate..~uuuuuu~

Relationship Status:
single and lovin it

My Favorites:

Favorite Color:
purple and blueie

Favorite Car:
Range rover vogue * drools*

Favorite Movie:
all bruce willis movie

Favorite Hobby:
teasing my mom, teasing my dad, teasing anyone who starts teasing me

Favorite Song/Singer:
the list is endless

Favorite School Subject/units:
oh..do you need to ask..B.I.O.L.O.G.Y

Favorite Vacation Destination:
place with nice scenery excluding africa and the amazon

Favorite Food:
everything my mom cooks..anthony bourdaine is zero compared to my moms.she can make me eat 3 plates of rice by cooking her sambal belacan only..yumyum..now you know why I’m this size.

Favorite Restaurant:
ahhh…escapade, korean rest and lalalalalalalalala….

Favorite Animal:
I want a kuskus which only existed in new guinea, it has white fur with orange spot, looks a lot like racoon but cuter version

Favorite Celebrity :
hmm..i have many..if I said only one, I’m afraid they’ll stopped messaging me *perasan ajumma!!!!* kehkehkeh

Favorite Childhood Friend:
yumi n rozi…we are like the three musketeer since in secondary years..inseparable lot we are…we will crush thee~ apakan!!

Favorite Baby Name:
hmmm…dominique or aloycious..

Favorite Person In Your Life:
myself?

This or That:Chocolate or Vanilla:
off course chokulate

Big Mac or Whopper:
big mac

Coke or Pepsi :
Coke with the capital C

Beer or Wine:
wine..i don’t drink cheap alcohol yooo…

Coffee or Tea:
tea..i don’t like the taste of coffee and the smell too..yes..yes I’m weird..i know

Apple Juice or O.J.:
Apple..i love apple.. I want to name my daughter as apple one day.

Facebook or MySpace:
cant decide

Summer or Winter:
haaaaa…you’ve to be kidding me..i love brunei weather thank you

Windows or Mac:
Window..i likes…

Cats or Dogs:
both..they are sooo cuddly

Boxers or Briefs:
apakah benda nya ni?

Rain or Shine :
Rain while sleeping, shine while I’m havin a date heh heh

Chips or Popcorn:
popcorn-cinema, chips- home cinema

Salty or Sweet:
why is it only sweet or salty, what about spicy?

Plane or Boat:
aeroplane thank you!

Morning or Night:
I like morning..no..nite…no…I like…oh I give up!

Movie or Play:
Movielh..we dun have plays in brunei..duh~

Walk or Drive:
drive when its more than 100m, walk if its less than 100 m

Money or Love:
when you have love, you don’t need money,when you have money, you don’t need love..you decide…

Breakfast or Dinner:
breakfast…

Forgiveness or Revenge:
forgiveness…

Paint or Wallpaper:
paint..wallpaper is sooo fussy

House or Apartment:
house..it provides privacy

Do You?:

Have Any Pets:
I have 6 cats and 3 rabbits..the clan will increase soon

Have Any Children:
can you ask me this question again, 10 years from now and make sure I’m married.

Smoke:
*GASP* how could you…I study bilogy x ah!!! I became a passive smoker ever since I study in UBD..tsk tsk some UBDians just cant seemed to read the ‘no smoking sign’ you naughty people.

Drink:
hmm..coke? errr I don’t understand

Exercise:
depends on my mood….

Spend Your Life On Facebook:
I don’t have one

Play On A Sports Team:
ahhhh…are you being sarcastic mister..or miss?

Belong To Any Organizations:
ahh..i joined KCC

Love Your Job:
I love studying my biology,,does the answer your question?

Like To Cook:
yup..yup..only when my mom refuse to…

Play An Instrument:
tsk tsk

Sing:
sometimes *blussh*

Dance:
yup…I love it

Speak Multiple Languages:
ahh.. I speak bahasa belait, dusun, malay, ‘engrish’, a lil bit of korean, lil bit of japanese, ahh…apalagi….is that multiple…? *cricket sound*

Ice Skate:
di manakan ku ice skate..di labi?

Swim:
yes..doggy style…muhehehe

Paint:
doraemon face only

Write:
write report only lah

Ski:
soalan…!

Juggle:
I don’t have stable leg

Have You Ever:

Stolen Anything:
hihihihihihihi *guilty laughed*whtaever i stole from my family i give it back.

Been Drunk Before Noon:
I don’t get drunk no matter how much I drink.

Got Caught Telling A Lie:
never…I’m a professional kikikiki

Got A Speeding Ticket:
wowowo…I don’t even have a license…if that police gives me a ticket means he’s flirting hooooo

Been Arrested:
no way and never will be

Had A One Night Stand:
no..i never stand for one nite..my leg hurts everytime I stand more than 30 mins..*inda paham!..innocent me*

Other:

Describe Yourself In One Word:
hmmmm..

Biggest Fear:
the highest being of all

#1 Priority In Your Life:
my family

Dream Job:
biological forencic

Where Are You Right Now:
my living room

Where Would You Rather Be:
beside you *evil laughed!*

Famous Person You Want To Meet:
oh oh..i want to meet oprah

Place To Visit Before You Die:
everywhere…

the end~

damn those railings!!!!

2008-05-16T21:03:00.002+08:00

hi ya...hem hem annyeong!!!!!

Something verry funny happened to me today..very funny i tell you..i was really malu when it happened...i wish i could go back in into my mom's uterus and never be born again..really..it was very embarassing...my pride was almost shattered eventhough it happened infront of people i dont know.nooo..i did not rip my pants, noooo i did not stain on my pants *u know what i mean girls*..what i did was..well....*sigh* i'm not sure if i should spill this out..but what the heck right...you're already curious about it, right? if i stop right now, you would swear at me right? If i say right once more, you will click on the links on the left side of the blog, right? okey...okey....it was not that big of a thing if i were to think it back but it seemed so super embarassing when it happened.
Yumi and I went to the cineplex at mall to watch prince caspian around 11.30 am. i was enjoying the movie when suddenly i want to peepee...it was exactly at the scene when the narnians was defeated by the telmarine at the telmarine castle..thanks to MR. prince caspian. I got up and went to the entrance when suddenly my right foot got caught in the railings beside the seats. so..apalagi.... i tripped and said "woah" very loud *i was not screaming the word oKEY* the next thing i know was that i was hanging on the railings...boy..if i didnt held the railing, for sure i'll be rolling down the stairs...then i quickly jumped back into the empty seat beside yumi.we were laughing so hard that my stomach began cramping up. i didnt dare to look at the people at the opposite section who actually saw my fall...i'll be crushed to the ground if i see them laughing at me. 10 minutes later, we still cant stop laughing. we laughbed so hard that no sound came out, only some hissing sound that you often see in cartoons when they laughed so hard. in the end, we both went to the toilet.

after the movie, i told yumi to go out after everyone goes out so that they cannot see my face..hah....lame! i know some of you thinks it not big of a deal...but its my first time humiliating myself so it is big of a deal for me. despite of the situation, i managed to enjoy the movie and if i were to rate it, i give it a 7/1o. it was i think better than the book..congrates to the production. In the chronicle of narnia, prince caspian is my least favourite book because i hate prince caspian...in the movie..i hate him too...haha..i dont know..maybe because of his accent or something..or is it because of his so unromantic eyes...arhhh i dont like him..fullstop..

rite...nite nite everyone!

who wants to be my flowerpot?

2008-05-15T23:27:00.001+08:00

i am super crazy about his song from alex clazziquai- flowerpot.it is so romantic ahhh and sad...i really love the song..i'll marry those who sing this song to me..........JUST KIDDING YOOO!!!! i have no intention of whatsoever in getting married before my 2nd semester exam results is out..so sorry guys..better hold on to your gears * as if they're interested in me..let the girl dream ok* but trully madly deeply..this song...thiiisss soooong....* hug my cat* i just love it guys, maybe because alex sang it in one of this korean show "we got married" i love alex in there. he is sooooo romantic eventhough he's not very good looking but with his being all romantic who cares how he looks!!!ahhh alex oppa....saranghaeyo!!!! he was singging this song to soon ae in the show and she thought he was proposing her for real but actually alex sang to her because he was leaving the show!!!i was like...anduei!!!!! alex oppa...kajima!!!!!!! saranghaeyo!!!!chongmal!!!! jebal oppa....jebal...kajima!!!!
[kajima- dont go, jebal-please,anduei-no,saranghaeyo- u know what it means *blush2*, chongmal-really!]

flowerpot-alex of calzziquai (translation taken from youtube)

From far far far distance she’s approaching
How am I to express my shaking heart
She…
Stole my heart from the very start
And give me the illness I cannot recover from
I want to become a flowerpot
I pray all the time
I want to be a flowerpot
That stands on her small window sill
Even I wont able to say a word or expect a thing
From time to time
I’ll receive her smile and caresses
And just watch her sleeping face
Without an end

Very far far far
She is leaving
How am I suppose to soothe
These falling tears
She….
Stole my heart from the start
And give me an illness I cannot recover from
I want to be the flower pot
I pray all the time
I want to be a flowerpot
That stands on her small window sill
Eventhough I wont able to say a word or expect a thing
From time to time
I’ll receive her smile and caresses
And just watch her sleeping face
Without an end

Alex oppa is my ideal guy *wink-wink*

mission accomplished!

2008-05-15T21:18:00.003+08:00

i've been in this mission for months.It is considered as a difficult mission for a non-geek person especially me. i've spents hours and hours of looking through google, installing tonnes of new softwares hoping that i can accomplished my mission. i was on the verge of giving up when suddenly one of the useless-but-took-a-lot-of-time-to-download-softwares was actually working. i was almost in tears...yorobeun..hear this...i manage to download songs from imeem..yes..yes..i know may be some of you or many of you already knew how to do it but hey i managed to this without anyone 's help..i'm proud of myself *tap shoulder* okay..okay..i'll stop now

today my 3 month holiday officially starts...
kekekekekekekekekekekemuehehehehehehehehehehehehkakakakakakakakakakahihihihihihihihihihohohihohohohohuuuhuhuhuhuhuk!huk!huk! okey..okay...i'll stop now..i'm not crazy yet
favourite pillow *checked*
favourite tilam *checked*
new korean drama dvd *checked*

I'm goin to have a blast holiday guyss..

happy holiday you beautiful people

tagged questionaires

2008-05-15T20:45:00.003+08:00

Tagged by Nana
Questionaires.Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
- after I give my parent and myself a good life

2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a TOUR ticket?
- umm..can I say all around the world? U didn’t ask about country you know!

3. Do the opposite sex find you attractive?
- Don’t make me laugh

4. Do you think money can buy happiness?
- I think so..why not!!!

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
- I want to be born as korean *mimo..mimo.,KOREAN FREAK ALERT*

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
- Only if I live in the amazon where there’s a lot of fresh free fruit

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
- my family, friend and myself

8. What type of person are you?-
*cricket sound*

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
- observe first..make sure he's not married kekekekeeke

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you?
- she’s nice with sir sherawat (physic teacher)
-That’s why she’s good in physic *jgn mare*
-She’s a cool girl

11. What are the food that you wish to eat right now?
- soto windu..rindu I mean..i want to eat it since last month *drools..can someone tapau for me?*

12. What type of person do you hate the most?
- people who do not care about other people’s feeling and those who disrespect my parents

13. What is your ambition?
- I want to be anything which involve biology

14. What item do you wish for right now?
- range rover vogue

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- family- I cannot live without them, they are my personal cheerleaders

16. If you could undo doing one mistake in the past, what would it be?
- I do not hope for imposible things, what happened in the pass stays in the past.

17. What are you hoping for currently?
- I want better grades than last semester

18. What music have you been listening to recently?
- big bang..i’m seriously addicted to these young boys

19. What is the one thing you cannot do but you wish you could?
- I want to see my future husband * if I have one*

20. If one day you couldn't do the things that you are used to doing now anymore, how would you feel?
-depends on how important it is, if one day I cannot eat as much as I am now..why should I be sad?

tagged: lee, hiong, raihan, vic, irene

Getting to know me questionaires

2008-05-13T20:22:00.003+08:00

Annyeong!
I found this questionaire in the internet some other day and I think its cute…maybe it helps you in knowing me more..

3 names you go by?
· Airul
· Yanti(only a handful used this part of my name
· Did** (hemhem family name..its quite confidential)

3 screen names you have
· Yantie^sylvia
· Mz_sylvia
· Mz_qimie

3 things you like about myself
· My hair
· My sense of style (perasan ajumma)
· I have high-rated common sense and smooth personality (aisyeh..why do I have the feeling that this is not true..)

3 things you hate about yourself
· I’m a living legend of procrastinators
· I’m not good in remembering people’s name
· Hard to take the first steps in knowing people(I is shy lah! *blush2*)

3 parts of your heritage
· Hmmmmmm
· Ah ha…its…hmmmm
· Ooo..i give up…next!

3 things you don’t understand
· mathematics
· Anything related to mathematics
· Anythings which is related to things related to mathematics

3 things that annoys you
· People smoking right into my face *tsk tsk*
· Hypocrites
· Snobbish pilipino-they think they’re better than Bruneian..(I know some and they annoys me big time!)

3 things that scares you
· Guys who suddenly talk with me about commitment
· Leeches *eeewwwww..i feel a tingly feeling on my feet everytime I said that word*
· Chucky! My worst nightmare, if you hate me, just throw a chucky doll on my face, I’ll be comma for months.

3 of your everyday essentials
· My mobile + lappy
· My iron straightener
· My cream + face powder *hey how do u think I make my face shine every day..puke2…toilets is that way please*

3 things I’m wearing now
· My pajamas
· My 12 eyed dzi beads bracelet
· My hair band

3 things on your desk
· My lappy
· My printer
· My mini library

3 things you said the most
· “iatah bah”
· “yoh”
· “ku tampar ko karang”

3 of your favourite band at the moment
· Dong bang shin ki
· FT island
· My chemical romance

3 of your favourite song rite now
· Last farewell-big bang
· Cry-rihanna
· I’m yours-jason Mraz

People you spend the most time
· Masayumi *nugde2*
· Rojai a.k.a rozi *yuhuuu*
· My friends

3 things you like about your friends
· They make me laugh
· They’re a good listener
· Hmmm..did I mentioned they can make me laugh?

3 things you want in a relationship
· Trust
· Understanding
· Sense of humour

3 things the opposite sex that appeals you
· Nice smile
· Nice sense of style
· Nice personality (high-rated sense of humour)

3 things you cant do
· Touch a leech* faints2*
· Ride a bike for more than 5 minutes
· Eat fish twice in a day

3 of your favourite hobbies
· Listening to korean muic
· Video downloading
· Blogging

3 things you want really bad right now
· Financial stability
· Sony psp * me so jealous at those people who have one*
· Stop being a procrastinator

3 carriers you’ve considered
· Bio forensic
· Internal designer
· Last but not least..teacher

3 plaaces you would go on vacation
· New zealand *promised my parents I take them there*
· Korea
· Japan

3 things you want to do before you die`
· Give my parent a good life
· *if I have children* I want to see my children have children and their children have children !!!
· Build a comfy home.

1 more to go

2008-05-12T11:12:00.000+08:00

annyeong...

i'm currently at the UBD ICTC . Its actually my first time surfing here with my laptop usually i either use the comp lab or go to the library. I did went to library just now but the connection was super-duper slow..i cant even open blogger for god sake! Someone has to upgrade the wireless connection at lib pleaselah. Im so lucky that only 3 people are currently sitting here in ICTC and the connection is well....alright! not as fast as i wanted it to be...l

like the title says: 1 more to go...1 more exam to go before i have my precious 3 month holiday *drools*mueheeheee i liiiikeeee! my last exam will be korean lanuguage..i havent started studying yet...maybe because i'm already in my holiday mood..i will switch into my nerd-mode tommorow....eventhough my important exams were all over, i'm still worried about it especially my chem and math...i had my math exam yesterday and i kinda managed to answer almost all of it...hmmmm something's fishy here..maybe i got it all wrong because my workings were kinda straight forward which i doubt the real answer is that straight forward. i hope i pass it..i hate math..i really do..but i hate supplement exam even more! i dont want to have supplement this semester..as for my chem..well...again...no comment!

i went to bio department just before i went to the library to pay for the biocorp outing on the 25th may, i'm really looking forward for this...its been ages since the last time i went to a beach...i'm sure going to have fun this time..oooo yeah!!!!

hmm...and also we were given 2 of our bio reports, the one about mud-wasp and ant-plant mutualism....i got c+ for mud wasp and a 6/10 for mutulism...6/10? wow..thats really suck! i was hoping for higher marks...i checked everyone marks actually (busybody ajumma), the highest was a 7/10. 2 people got it and maybe because they hand it in on the same day of the practical itself, thats why they have extra marks...maybelah...!!! eventhough its only a 1 page report, still i do hope i got higher marks...damn..maybe my writing skill is rusting...wuahaha dont want!

ooooo i forgot...i want to say Happy mother's day to my beloved 'umma'

사 랑 해 요 umma!!!

my mom with my eldest sister

Thank you mom

for staying by my side this past 20 years of my life

Thank you mom

For making me pisang goreng everytime i'm upset

Thank you mom

for cheering me up everytime i'm bored

Thank you mom

for sleeping with me everytime i feel scared eventhough i didnt tell you

Thank you mom

for trying hard in giving me what i want

Thank you mom

for telling me whats right from wrong

Thank you mom

for making me feel i'm special than everyone else

and Thank you mom

for having me as your daughter.

Gumapsemnida umma!

i'll give you a good life..yaksuk!

my mom precious quote;

" study hard because education is the only treasure that i can give all of you"

saranghae umma (isk isk i miss my mom!)

For all those who love your mom so much...dont forget to greet her mother's day for this is the day that you can show her how much she means for you...

annyeong...

Preparing to hibernate....

2008-05-08T12:33:00.000+08:00

안 녕....

Today is the 4th day of the gruelling UBD exam and luckily i have no exam today..i repeat..nooo exaaamm...yay! I still have 3 more exam...but never mind, i had my bio and chem exam last tuesday and wednesday. How should i rate it...mediocre?...hmmm i dont know...its just that i'm really frustrated because some of the questions that came out were really easy but then i didnt read it..damn! this is the result of doin last minute revision....
The biology questions were quite alright though i'm not sure whether my answers were acceptable or not...when i read the essay questions i was like...Anduei!!!!! (means no in korean)..i didnt read most of the part which came out as essay question. but with the power of my so-called high rated common sense...i picked 2 question which i managed to squeeze some answers from my brain. I picked the one about the food chain hypotheses and El nino. i didnt read about el nino actually but i dont have any other choice. when i read all the other esaay question, my brain cant even recalled the tiniest, bits and pieces of infomation about it....
so i just settled on those two questions. i picked el nino because i remember this song from tata young which was called el nino also..i remember the video havin some fires it in so i assume the el nino is the drought season... wuhahaha..clever eh? so i just made up some theories about the wind and drought and something about the water temperature. i didnt even double checked my answers...damn it.. i was really surprised how some people managed to finish answering the questions early...some of my coursemates finished the exam early, everytime one of them went out i just gaped and looked at my answer, i didnt even finished half of it..how can they do it sooo fast...maybe the questions were easy...errrghh...damn you laziness! when the exam ended, i checked the campbell for the answers and amazingly some of its was correct especially my el nino part..yay!
Honestly, i started my bio revision the day before the exam started...hmmm..maybe its my own fault...enough biology. my chem exam was yesterday...it was......well.....nooooo coooommmmmeeennnt! i dont want to think about it...some of my coursemates..hem hem amazingly finds it easy oOo...wow..i dont know what to say....
may be that all for today....good luck to you people for your exam....

sad love stories..ekksss i like!

2008-04-30T00:43:00.000+08:00

Different people have their own way in relieving their stress. I dont have any specific ways to relieve my stressfullness- self . sometimes i eat alot, sometimes i sleep, sometimes i watch DVDs, sometimes i read other people's blog, sometimes i kacau-kacaau c dang masayumi and rojai a.k.a rozi, sometimes i googled for some sad love stories which i did few weeks ago and i'm glad i did because i found my favourite short sad love story which i have read a few years back, its a miracle that i managed to read it again as i dont know the title of the story. i asked yumi to read it..as usual she began to read with her expressionless face then when she got to the ending she was like ' *suck in breath* aii...isk2* she didnt actually cried but she did felt a lil bit sad...i'm goin to post the story..hope you guys enjoy it..annyeong.

A sad love story

10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called"best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep.She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step! I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn`t see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read:

'I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!'

I wish I did too... I thought to my self, and I cried.

tissue anyone?

slap wake up airul!!!!

2008-04-29T21:27:00.000+08:00

안 녕.....
Guess where i am now?? yes..yes...i'm onlyn which means i'm at my home sweet home...just came back from hostel. my real plan was to stay at hostel the entire revision week to do my revision off course for the exam (i have butterflies in my stomach everytime i said the word 'exam') but some more rather..these past 2 days when i was in hostel, i felt extra lazy than usual and i didnt do m uch revision as i expected. Yesterday for example i slet at 5.30 pm till 12.40 am..then i stayed awake to watch some DVDs and doin a lil bit of reading my bio a few hours. i went back to sleep again at 5.30 am. i woke up at 9.30 am. took a bath and did some revision and slept again at 1.30 pm. i woke up at 5.30 pm with a tight sensation on my head. i thought i was because of the over-sleeping..but it didnt wears off after a few hours. then i thought i'm wasting my time in the hostel and decided to go back home and i did. i'm not sure if i can do my revision properly at home but at least i can avoid having my afternoon sleeping which i often do when i'm at hostel.ahh...i still have this this tight felling on my head..it started to annoy me...
I dont have any mood to do revision now even though my first exam paper is less than a week away (nxt monday actually)..i'm worried but i just cant get my self to pick up the notes and study..this is crazy!!!! why am i like this? i'm supposed to have better grades this semester..from the look of it..i dont think soo...
may be i should give myself some time to ready..but i dont have enough time....umaa......macam mana ni...macam mana ni!!!!! *panicz*
errr...never mind..i will survive..i will survive this *looking the sky!*

eeepppss! exams are coming!!!

2008-04-26T19:45:00.000+08:00

omo..omo...its been a pretty hell of a week..no 2 weeks no no no 3 weeks...i've been busy like hell...there were sooo many reports and assignments to do and to be handed in...and thank god i managed to do just that...i've been pretty stress out lately...and i'm concerned about my physical chem performance..ahh....physical chem is scarryyy....and hard and boring and confusing and toooo much mathemathics involved...(^O^)...sakit kepalaku to the maxx...
why is that i cannot avoid myself from math...errrgh...i sooo hate math (sorry guys!)..its not about the teacher actually..i just hated that subject...like charles darwin once said to one of his friends ' studying mathematics is like stuck in the mud, the more you move, the deeper you sink'
high 5 darwin...i loveee theee....
why i dont like mathematics? basically because it doesnt have any logical explaination..or i just dont understand about it. for me, anything or everything must have a reason why, how , when, where things happend. Thats why i love biology. it gives logical explaination which my mind can understand and absorbed...math? its just numbers and a lot of confusing formula. why do we have to intergrate? why do we have to squared it or cubed it? how do we know its correct? what is the real reason we have to intergrate a number? why do we have to function a formula? anyone cares to explain this to me? well, forget it, i wont be able to understand it anyway with this biological brain of mine..so basically i'm just not a math-minded person.....why am i talking about math? may be because i'm scared of my math exam...epppsss...god please help me!!!!
i just handed in my bukit sawat report today and i cant say its my best work..maybe my worst...we'll see...and i just wanna convey my deepest and greatest appreciation to those beautiful and handsome people who worked hard in compiling the results for the bukit sawat reports..thanks you guys..without you guys my reports must have been a disastrous one. thank you for making the data seemed to be logical at last..truthfully i didnt understand about it before...so once again...thank you my beautiful coursemates....
annyeong...

Oh bloody god!!!

2008-04-13T19:54:00.000+08:00

Aiguu....stress my brain cells

2008-04-12T20:52:00.000+08:00

aNNYEONG YOROBEUN..
YES..YES...i know..i miss you too...okey...!! wawawawa perasan to the very this lady...may be its because part of her brain cells was damaged this hectic frickin like hell past few days...i was really stress out..there were times when i just wanna lay down and shut down all my system..let me just hibernate myself...pleaselah.....eeee....yuuuu...miyu...miyu..miiyu...-> dats my brain..wuahaha its starting sounding like dat for the past few days...i was totally stressed out..i had some personal problems too...today i just handed in my chem assignments and biology report..yay! so 3 more pending reports to go....oh how i love my lecturers..NOT!!!!
as i'm really free rite now..i'm goiin to do some mega picture upload of events happened when this blog was in hiatus....
oooookeeey.........its not working...maybe on some other day then....
nite-nite people...dun let fernando in your dreams tonite....okkkeeyyy..okkkey...i'm sorry sir...i didnt mean it...annyeong!

These past few days

2008-03-28T14:04:00.000+08:00

Annyeong yorobeun….
It’s been almost a week since I last posted anything...almost...maybe I’m just too damn busy this week…damn busy!! Didn’t I tell you that I had my chemistry practical last Monday...yes I did...it was actually an easy practical but somehow me and najib (najib is my lab partner) were taking our time in doing it and we ended up finishing it much later than expected..But nevertheless we did finish it successfully and I didn’t fell asleep and I didn’t throw acid at anyone. Close as we may be (me and najib) somehow during the practical there were several times that I did not understand what najib was trying to say and do…he almost said ‘ paham kau kah?’ to me almost 20 times…haaaa..I think we should work on our communication as a team najib… (Wassup!)
We were supposed to do the practical report and submit it on Wednesday...yes Wednesday, no no no you’re not wrong…3 days…3 days only we were given the time to do and finish up the report with its super long and complicated calculation. There were 2 parts of the practical with 3 different sets of calculation. Each calculation took 2 or 3 pages to solve it...imagine that one calculation = 3 pages...crazy bah….
Somehow, after the mid-semester break I decided to change the way I study…I DON’T WANT TO PROCRASTINATE ANYMORE… there were several times when doing the report that I felt like giving up and refuse to finish up the report (which I’ve always done in the past) but when I think it back if I didn’t finish it up today..Then I will never finish it up...ever…I decided to follow the good side of me and struggled to finish the report. Believe it or not everyone…I stayed up until 5 am in the morning...on Wednesday morning that is...on the day that I have a lot of activity...oh great!!! I only had 2 hours of sleep then I woke up and went to UBD.Fortunately, I managed to finish up my report and hand it in on time yeah hei…..! *tap shoulder* good job...good job… despite of having only 2 hours of sleep I manage to stay hyperactive than usual on that day...maybe I’m just happy
As usual on Wednesday I had my Korean culture club activity. This week’s activity was a joint activity with Science College’s KCC.

What we did:
1. Breaking the ice between the UBDians and science college students. We played some games which gave us a chance to mingle with the science college students…we also played the traditional Korean game hana, dul, set, ne..It was fun…..there was this one time during the game that I laughed soooo hard that I can feel my colon was twisting sideways...? (has..just kid)..cali tah tu banar…
2. Then we had a Korean folk drama show. 4 plays- 2 by KCC member and committee and 2 by the science college students. The science college’s student play was excellent actually..very funny…our play was… well no comment! Hey..we just had one hour of practice for the drama so it’s a ill bit unorganized but the second drama by the UBDians was very funny…fuhh…I really like it…good job guys!!
3. Then we had the whispering game- we were grouped together:UBDians and MS students were mixed. Then the committee will say one korean word to the first group member. Then the first group member have to pass the word to another group member and it goes on and on until it reached the last person who whispered the word to another committee to make sure it was right…no one win…all the group answered the last question wrong.
4. End of ceremony

It was fun than expected and I do want to have this kind of joint activity again in the future…..

science college's students taking group photo

I went to GIANT today with my family. To my surprised it was still crowded with people. When I entered the building I was kinda surprised with the arrangement of the shop..it was quite nice..it said QUITE only..it was bit different from what I had imagined…judging the outer appearance of the building..it did not expect much from it. I imagined it was something like the E-mart..the one at tudan, before miri. but it was different and slightly pleasant..i said slightly only ah… then I went round-round with my family just to see what else they offer. This was the part when I started to get annoyed…the place was way tooo crowded with people....not enough space to move around..people were pushing at you from all direction, the smell of food from different restaurant mixed together, it smelled like people farting in front of your face (seriously…or did someone just fart in front of me …eeewww)..i was dizzy so I decided to go to go inside giant supermarket to see what was inside..the first section that I targeted..the cloth section…the moment I laid eyes on the clothes..i know that its not my type of clothes..it was mainly simple t-shirts..which I’m not interested in buying…then I walked around to see more then…suddenly…my ass was poke from behind…I glanced back to see what it was and saw a man surprised face…then I looked at his trolley..a broomstick..i was poked by a broomstick…!!! Damn you damn you…
The man: eh sorry dang ah..sorry..
Me: *raised eyebrow* and walked away
To tell you the truth, sakit x ah kana cucuk ah..aiya..etah orang brunei ani mun sudah shopping atu, inda lagi ingatkan dunia and punggung orang lain..!!!inda apa kamu..inda paa...!!!

Soo basically, what I can say is that it was not worth it.GIANT was not worth the pushing, the farting in front of people’s face, the poking of people’s ass..it was all not worth it..i may not go to GIANT for some time from now..I’m still traumatized… (Exaggerating)

*all post made in this blog is from my point of views only..no..not yours but mine…if you don’t like it..make your own blog ok…

commitment...

2008-03-23T08:52:00.000+08:00

Time: Friday (last’s week biocorp activity)
Place: biology lab

Me: najib you prefer married early or aher?
Najib: *laughed* kawin awal lah..kau?
Me: I prefer kawin aher..
Najib: eh siok jua kawin awal..kenapa ko mau kawin aher?
Me: I want to give my parents a good life.
Najib: boleh jua kita buat atu while kawin.
Me:no no no..boleh plang tapi if kawin, limited ja sumbangan kita ke family because kita ada responsibility arah our own family gi…lagipun, I’ve seen evidence yang if kita kawin awal, we wont be able to take care of our parents much..i’ve seen many evidence of this..in my life..
Najib:iyakah? Sapa? Your sis?
Me: no lah…(then I go on and on about the topic)

Believe it or not..i always talked about this kind of topic with my girlfriend, najib (wahaha jgn mare najib) . for me marriage = commitment. Now, I’m not ready to give myself up for commitment for anybody except myself, my education and family.
It always freaked me out when my boyfriend suddenly talked about commitment and getting married..and if they started talking about it, I will start repelling myself from them and believe it or not I will end that relationship as soon as possible. I guess some of you would say that I’m afraid of commitment..maybe yes…maybe no…I’m just 20 ¾ years old, I’m not ready to make serious relationship commitment..maybe because I haven’t found the right guy yet or maybe because I’m just young..huahaaa..maybe some of you would say I’m a bad girl for breaking up with someone just because he asked for a little commitment, well, say or think what you want…for me a relationship is just a relationship, it doesn’t represent anything or promised anything from me…I’m just in it for the fun of it…nothing more…*sigh*

I’m feeling a bit mellow this morning.. I don’t know why..ah ha! May be because I have chemistry Practical tomorrow…I will see my most favourite lecturer of all..NOT! just hope I dont fall asleep during the practical and throw acid at someone..wuahaha..beware everyone…annyeong..

my cat...ensi

2008-03-21T14:39:00.001+08:00

Annyeong…
Firstly, I want to say happy belated maulud nabi to all the muslim out there….today is Friday, I’m at home right now but somehow I felt really bored..i was planning to go swimming with my sis but then *drip-drip* it started to rain and we have to cancel it..damn it-damn it!! Now I really don’t have anything to do.actually I’m waiting for my sis to offer me to go jalan-jalan d tutong…at a time like this.. I accept anywhere to go jalan-jalan because I’m just sooo super bored…if I’m this bored I will start to eat something non-stop (I have chicken drumstick stuck in my mouth rite now)..so I thought its better to waste my last bits of netcard…

Rite…let me introduce to you the love of my life....my cat..i have a cat..i have many cat actually but somehow I loved this one cat more than any cat in the world. I had him in 2006..he was still a baby and ‘bekurap’. He had kurap all over him.usually we don’t take this kind of cat because we know that it’ll be a troublesome but when I look it in the eyes, I knew that I can make him better…so I took him even though my parents told me not to do so.

I took him to the vet everyweek and give him medication. There were several times when I thought he will not make it through the night because he was soo sick and at a time like this I will let him sleep beside me….to make this long story short…my cat survived and now he’s just a spoiled big fat cat…yes..spoiled! he always stayed in the house..i will never let him spend even a night in a cage with the other cat. If my mom said something about putting him in a cage I will start looking at her with teary eyes..and my mom would say “basaran jua kucing kamu ani!”
Well what can I do..after all that I did for him..off courselah kucing ckami basaran ma! My cat’s name is ensi.. and here are some pics of him.

he look cute when he sleeps

this is his annoyed look. he always give me this look everytime i disturbed him sleeping

this is my egg!!!

this is where he usually sleeps in..that's an oven box actually..just imagine how big he is..my mission now is to make him as fat as possible

dance fusion vids

2008-03-20T14:39:00.000+08:00

pics that i promised

2008-03-20T10:27:00.000+08:00

yo...this this the fitz zone pics that i promised in my last post

Yumi on the dance floor

Yumi tring to shake her butt off..shake it yumi...shake it

other people who join the class...i like to move it - move it

i'm bored

2008-03-18T16:31:00.001+08:00

yuhuuu...guess where i am now? i'm sitting at the back of UBD library...on the floor...the place where people ususally sits when they want to get a good wireless connection..yes that place...it is a good place for wireless..NOT!!! the connection is super lousy here.i got disconnected a few times which annoys me to the very. Why am I sitting here blogging myself away? why am I not in my chem tutorial? hm...i guess the answer is i'm too lazy to go to class today..seriously lazy! i only have chem class, my hangugoe class was cancelled...so i feel extra malas and decided to lepak-lepak at the library today..may be i can flirt someone..hoooohoooo...not in a million years...! i dont flirt people. its not like i dont like to do it, its just that i dont know how to do it...maybe god forgot to include the 'flirting' genes in my system...haaaaa.....

the real reasons of why i'm here today is to post some pics of the fitness zone class that i always talked about recently. maybe if you see the pics, you might be interested to join the class and be a fitness zone member....i'm already a member by the way and i'm lovin it big time!!! so guys enjoy..not many though...and if i can figure out how to insert videos here maybe i can post a short video of our class too. by the way the name of this class is..dance fusion...

how could this happened?

2008-03-18T16:31:00.000+08:00

I had a very hard day today..so do forgive me for my grumpiness....a lot of sad things happened to me today may be i had a bad 'karma' or something...firstly, i cant apply for the korean scholarship because if we receive the scholarship then we have to quit UBD and if we quit UBD we have to fucking pay all the allowances that we received from first semester...i was like...bangang!!!!! i really want this scholarship!!! sasak ku eh.....why is this happening to me!!!! but thats not the end of my misery... we had bio test last week and the results was out today and guess what...i failed the test...I FUCKING FAILED THE TEST....THE BILOGY TEST...HOW COULD THIS BE HAPPENING...I NEVER FAILED MY BIO TEST...NEVER...WHY...WHY....WHY LANE...WHY...I'M SAD...I'M FURIOUS...I'M HUNGRY...someone plez slap me or hug me or kiss me or anything. please help me get through this pain, this humiliation....arghhhhhhhh...ummmaaaa!!!!! wuaaaa.............
my good self: compose your self airul..this is sooo not like you. take a deep breath...inhale..exhale!

my bad self : this is what you get when you do not do a proper revision plus if you procrastinate a lot..you must be responsible for your own action

for the first time...my bad self was right...maybe i deserve what i got this time but yet.....i feel sooo sad...

so...yorobeun...let us get rid of the sadness with pics of a happy moments

my sister, yumi and I went to utama bowling last saturday and we had a good and funny time

let me introduce to you my sister's backside (nda pham!!!)

This is the owner of the above mentioned backside...my 3rd sister

this is the girl who thinks she can play bowling...!!!

yuhhuu

2008-03-16T17:56:00.001+08:00

yuhuuuu

My Life as Me

take care of my girlfriend!!!!!

i wnat to be a warrior not a worrier

Holiday Vs supplement

fast and furious indeed....

fully booked~~~~~

what is this i'm feeling?

This time-wonder girls

scares the hell out of me!!!!

oh this is soooo my song.....

COMING SOON~~~~~~

Finally.....

a thing brunei shud consider doing in the future

mobile popcorn

Can we end their misery?

breast parasite (WARNING: some pictures are really disturbing)

gee parody

my all time favourite korean song

beautiful boys...

GONG XI FA CAI

dangerously kawaii~~~~

new layout and haemoglobin

he left me

November Baby~~~

exam comments....

i'm still fighting~~~

practical exam~~~

fighting everyone!!!!!!

EXAM EXAM EXAM!!!!! oh no

i got beeped!!!!

축하합니다 오빠~~~~~

Rainism~~~

happy birthday to me...

youth camp 2

Youth camps part 1

hari raya pics

more pics during mammal trappings

Small mammals trappings

what i do lately~

updates at last...

I MISS BRUNEI

long lost updates..

hmmmm...

no pain no gain...

pregnant men!!!

I'm free~~~~~

I'm back~~

its time to let you go....

bukit patoi...here i come!!!!

are they really an item?

'pisang panas' gossip

You’re always be my ‘idol’

slice them meat

tagged...again?

damn those railings!!!!

who wants to be my flowerpot?

mission accomplished!

tagged questionaires

Getting to know me questionaires

1 more to go

Preparing to hibernate....

sad love stories..ekksss i like!

*slap* wake up airul!!!!

eeepppss! exams are coming!!!

Oh bloody god!!!

Aiguu....stress my brain cells

These past few days

commitment...

my cat...ensi

dance fusion vids

pics that i promised

i'm bored

how could this happened?

yuhhuu

slap wake up airul!!!!